My mind wanders way too much lately. Maybe I do have too much time on my hands. I personally don't think I do, but some people think I could better utilize my time by doing something else....maybe not ranting or blabbering away on a keyboard. My response to that......to each their own. I will do what I please at this stage of the game (life).....and, why do I want to change? That is the $64 question.
The real $64 question.......do you make resolutions or do you make goals? Apparently no one wants to comment about that. I do not make resolutions. Never have, as I do not keep them. They fall apart as quickly as they are made. On the other hand, I do make goals...........goals that are realistic. Not too many goals, but a few that I can accomplish without beating myself up at the end year because I didn't make it happen. One goal I made was to quit smoking. I did.......didn't happen the first week of that particular New Year, but it did happen during that year at some point. I did it on my own time, at my own pace.........another goal and also one that is kind of ongoing.....be more organized, get more organized. I became overwhelmed with a lot of clutter in my life. Both emotionally and personally. This goal is an ongoing one that I keep on my list each year. I just do a little more every year. It will never be perfect. I don't want my life to be perfect, either emotionally or personally. I will become stale and stagnant. But my house will be organized and I will continue to surround myself with people that I want to be around..........happy people, not downer people............
A goal for me this year.......to be a better person than I was in 2012........be kinder, more thoughtful, more helpful, more patient. All very realistic goals that I can continue to do and improve on........
As 2012 comes to a close, I will strive to do my best with my goals, continue to follow our home boy, 1 f, and try to repair my crystal ball so I can predict if this dashing duo of a couple will actually stay together (I do believe in miracles) and play out the fairytale ending we all want. I vow to not read a whole lot into the trash magazines as it's all rumors. Nothing fact based about the crap that's out there now. I'm excited to watch the new season of The Bachelor with Sean Lowe. Maybe because it might take a lot of the limelight and spotlight off of 1 f and Emily.....Sean is a stud........more eye candy for us to drool over. I will have to think of the perfect adjective to describe him as I have 1 f (scrumptious) and Arie,jr. (delicious).............good golly bring out the fans I need to cool off.................I'm open to suggestions for Mr. Lowe.........the man's got a body, that's for sure............
Happy New Year. I'm glad and so grateful for all the new friends that I have made and I do have more room in my heart for more........you never have enough friends............
Sunday, December 30, 2012
Saturday, December 22, 2012
1 f Jef - wishful thinkin'
Sometimes I wish I could take a long winters nap and wake up with it being sunny, green and rosy again. Not saying I don't like winter, snow, and the cold. I'm just saying that moving on from the bad is how I cope with the todays and the tomorrows. I cannot look back. I can only look forward. I cannot change time that has already passed, but I can certainly do my best to live each minute today. I'll worry about tomorrow, tomorrow........I've had my fill of sadness and heartbreak. Tis the season to be merry and jolly and it's time to step forward and enjoy it. Really enjoy it.
The fam and I are doing something different this year. We're headed out of town for Christmas. Not sure this is something that is going to appeal to me, but it's too late to back out. Reservations are made and we're headed out first thing in the morning. I am leaving my decorated tree and we're driving to Las Vegas. It will be a short trip, but a fun one I am hoping. My baby boy is going to school in Phoenix and will drive up and meet us in Vegas. Oldest boy is flying in and middle son will drive down with the husband and me. A total and complete family affair. This is what they wanted for Christmas. A family trip. Frankly, I can think of better places to go than Las Vegas, like Hawaii, but since the baby son is in school and on a limited budget, Vegas is where we'll be. 'It's a half way point for us and for him. Actually we drive an hour more than him. Six hour drive for us, but it goes by quickly. I am kind of excited. We're seeing a couple of shows and having a nice dinner or two. There will be plenty of opportunities for me to take a ton of pictures. See the holiday lights and how the casinos decorate for Christmas. I love Christmas. It's my favorite holiday. To be somewhere different for the holidays will be a different scene. If this trip is a success, then we will definitely do this again over the holidays, but next time, someplace warm. Like Hawaii, or Mexico...........some place that I can dabble my toes in ocean water, drink funky, tropical drinks, slather myself with sunscreen and sit under an umbrella with a huge hat shading me and read trashy, but oh so good, romance novels and dream about...........sorry can't let you in on that part of my fantasy....... Get the picture......anyplace warm and tropical will be just fine..........
So with that being said, I hope everyone in my life has a wonderful and uneventful Christmas. No trauma, no drama, no family quarrels. Just peace, love, happiness and joy. Oh, and no hangovers either. I hope everyone gets what they asked for from Santa. I know there won't be any 1 f dolls wrapped up with pretty ribbon under the Christmas tree. I'd settle for a life size poster of the kid myself. But that ain't gonna happen either. But if I could grant a wish to everyone who has the same obsession as me in regards to 1 f, it would for it to come true, whatever your wish happens to be. Even if it's only for a split second. If it would put a smile on your face, then my job is done. I just know that this kid puts a smile so big around my heart it aches sometimes. Heaven help the male population as you have some pretty big shoes to fill. I don't think any female walking this earth is going to settle for anything less. I know I wouldn't.
Soon 1 f is going to have to move over and let the new Bachelor take hold of the reins. Competition is always good. He's certainly set the bar pretty high for future bachelors to appear on both franchises....I'm pretty sure Sean will do a fine job. I'm looking forward to seeing a personality emerge. He was a bit boring for me to watch. Maybe I like guys with a bit more edge, too. He does have something going for him and that's a killer "I work out" body.......Hmmmmmmm...yup he's a mighty fine specimen.
Have a merry, merry Christmas.....hope you go to sleep with sugar plums dancing in your head on Christmas Eve.
The fam and I are doing something different this year. We're headed out of town for Christmas. Not sure this is something that is going to appeal to me, but it's too late to back out. Reservations are made and we're headed out first thing in the morning. I am leaving my decorated tree and we're driving to Las Vegas. It will be a short trip, but a fun one I am hoping. My baby boy is going to school in Phoenix and will drive up and meet us in Vegas. Oldest boy is flying in and middle son will drive down with the husband and me. A total and complete family affair. This is what they wanted for Christmas. A family trip. Frankly, I can think of better places to go than Las Vegas, like Hawaii, but since the baby son is in school and on a limited budget, Vegas is where we'll be. 'It's a half way point for us and for him. Actually we drive an hour more than him. Six hour drive for us, but it goes by quickly. I am kind of excited. We're seeing a couple of shows and having a nice dinner or two. There will be plenty of opportunities for me to take a ton of pictures. See the holiday lights and how the casinos decorate for Christmas. I love Christmas. It's my favorite holiday. To be somewhere different for the holidays will be a different scene. If this trip is a success, then we will definitely do this again over the holidays, but next time, someplace warm. Like Hawaii, or Mexico...........some place that I can dabble my toes in ocean water, drink funky, tropical drinks, slather myself with sunscreen and sit under an umbrella with a huge hat shading me and read trashy, but oh so good, romance novels and dream about...........sorry can't let you in on that part of my fantasy....... Get the picture......anyplace warm and tropical will be just fine..........
So with that being said, I hope everyone in my life has a wonderful and uneventful Christmas. No trauma, no drama, no family quarrels. Just peace, love, happiness and joy. Oh, and no hangovers either. I hope everyone gets what they asked for from Santa. I know there won't be any 1 f dolls wrapped up with pretty ribbon under the Christmas tree. I'd settle for a life size poster of the kid myself. But that ain't gonna happen either. But if I could grant a wish to everyone who has the same obsession as me in regards to 1 f, it would for it to come true, whatever your wish happens to be. Even if it's only for a split second. If it would put a smile on your face, then my job is done. I just know that this kid puts a smile so big around my heart it aches sometimes. Heaven help the male population as you have some pretty big shoes to fill. I don't think any female walking this earth is going to settle for anything less. I know I wouldn't.
Soon 1 f is going to have to move over and let the new Bachelor take hold of the reins. Competition is always good. He's certainly set the bar pretty high for future bachelors to appear on both franchises....I'm pretty sure Sean will do a fine job. I'm looking forward to seeing a personality emerge. He was a bit boring for me to watch. Maybe I like guys with a bit more edge, too. He does have something going for him and that's a killer "I work out" body.......Hmmmmmmm...yup he's a mighty fine specimen.
Have a merry, merry Christmas.....hope you go to sleep with sugar plums dancing in your head on Christmas Eve.
Sunday, December 16, 2012
1 f Jef - Sugar and Spice
Can you believe it? Christmas is just around the corner. This year, this month, let alone this past week has come and gone to quickly. I'm almost glad that it's just about over with. Too much tragedy. Too much sadness. Too many tears. Too much heart ache and too much of just plain too many bad things. I still wonder why good things happen to bad people........I need to smile, to smell good things baking, to see and be with my family today........and that's exactly what is on my dance card...........
Today starts my marathon of baking for this family....a traditional I have done for the past 100 years. Sometimes it feels like I've been doing it for that long. Time is whizzing by me way too fast for my comfort level. I always take the week before Christmas to do my major baking. By this time, I'm through Christmas shopping, wrapping gifts, and ready to tackle the kitchen like a tornado whipping up cookie concoctions, finding lost recipes that were misplaced from the year before, and making myself sick from eating all the cookie dough. There's nothing quite like a sugar high off of Christmas cut out cookie dough followed by licking the beaters from making buttercream frosting. Not to mention the sprinkles and other finishing touches that are pure sugar and delight that go on top of the cookies. Health conscious I am not. But it's once a year that I do this all out, major sugar high week. I do this for my family, for my friends and neighbors. I bake enough stuff to feed an army.
I have stopped several times today and wondered what next year at this time will bring. I know I will be baking cookies, but will 1 F Jef still be so fascinating to everyone? I've wondered if someone was to make a cookie recipe of 1 F Jef, what would it consist of......what ingredients would be put into it. How do you make two eyes that will melt your heart when you look at them. A voice that mesmerizes you with softness, and sweetness that flows like honey from a honey pot. A heart so huge it takes two hands to hold it. Arms that beg to be wrapped around your soul... hands that hold yours forever while reaching out and holding others in need. Legs to run to you when you're hurt, run to you because he's happy to see you. I'm pretty sure the mold was broken when he was made.... pretty sure that he cannot be duplicated. He's one of a kind.....How can you perfect perfection ? That's easy.........you can't...........so I will take 1 F Jef as I can. As I'm sure everyone else will also.........one sweet, delicious, morsel at a time.........so if pictures can speak volumes..............I'll continue to keep my eyes wide open....and by all means, turn the volume up please.....................oh, and pass the milk.
Today starts my marathon of baking for this family....a traditional I have done for the past 100 years. Sometimes it feels like I've been doing it for that long. Time is whizzing by me way too fast for my comfort level. I always take the week before Christmas to do my major baking. By this time, I'm through Christmas shopping, wrapping gifts, and ready to tackle the kitchen like a tornado whipping up cookie concoctions, finding lost recipes that were misplaced from the year before, and making myself sick from eating all the cookie dough. There's nothing quite like a sugar high off of Christmas cut out cookie dough followed by licking the beaters from making buttercream frosting. Not to mention the sprinkles and other finishing touches that are pure sugar and delight that go on top of the cookies. Health conscious I am not. But it's once a year that I do this all out, major sugar high week. I do this for my family, for my friends and neighbors. I bake enough stuff to feed an army.
I have stopped several times today and wondered what next year at this time will bring. I know I will be baking cookies, but will 1 F Jef still be so fascinating to everyone? I've wondered if someone was to make a cookie recipe of 1 F Jef, what would it consist of......what ingredients would be put into it. How do you make two eyes that will melt your heart when you look at them. A voice that mesmerizes you with softness, and sweetness that flows like honey from a honey pot. A heart so huge it takes two hands to hold it. Arms that beg to be wrapped around your soul... hands that hold yours forever while reaching out and holding others in need. Legs to run to you when you're hurt, run to you because he's happy to see you. I'm pretty sure the mold was broken when he was made.... pretty sure that he cannot be duplicated. He's one of a kind.....How can you perfect perfection ? That's easy.........you can't...........so I will take 1 F Jef as I can. As I'm sure everyone else will also.........one sweet, delicious, morsel at a time.........so if pictures can speak volumes..............I'll continue to keep my eyes wide open....and by all means, turn the volume up please.....................oh, and pass the milk.
Sunday, December 9, 2012
1 F & a little inspiration
Sometimes you find inspiration is the strangest places. Saturday, for example, I found inspiration at work. My last day of work for 2013 as a matter of fact. I work with an incredible group of ladies. A mix of ages. Sometimes when you have that mix, you don't always work well. And, it's been proven that woman working with woman don't always jell together in the work place. But we sure do. We have fun and don't take each other too seriously. But as much as I enjoyed the inspiration I got from these ladies yesterday, it's not what I really wanted to blog about. I'll save that for a future "rant", as my boss so aptly put it to me yesterday. (I let the cat out of the bag that I blog for fun and pure entertainment for my mental health).
My inspiration comes from the social media network that is so powerful these days. Both good and bad. Last weekend was for me a nightmare of stupid, idiotic crap, that was running rampant on the Internet like a bad case of diarrhea, in regards to 1 F.......this weekend it's totally different. Same social media network. This weekend is nothing but pure pleasure. Turned on the laptop Saturday at an ungodly hour in need of a serious wake up and I got it. Coffee wasn't ready yet so didn't think my eyes would open wide enough to read, let alone gaze upon a nice morsel of meat, oh sorry......MAN. Just a minor slip of the keys in typing......sorry, not sorry........Before my eyes was a nice video that had 1F and his partner in crime (actually business comrade) Cody Barker plucking rose petals and making wishes..........that was a nice way to open my eyes that had been closed shut tightly and didn't want to budge open due to the ungodly hour of the morn.........Had to watch it more than once. Needed to embed the imagines in my brain. This was to keep my eyes open....truly.......and the day and evening just kept getting better and better with pics galore to ogle about. Still haven't quite figured out why 1 F is so dang fascinating to watch. And, right now I don't really want to find out the real cause. I'll continue to look and listen to him............
Sooooooooooooo, what happens when you wake up on a sunny, snow covered Sunday, turn on the laptop, wait again for the coffee to be done? What happens is that you find yet again another reason to gaze at the plethora of pics that have magically appeared by a wonderful twitter fairy who sprinkled my screen (and everyone elses who looked at them) with 1F fairy. Lots and lots of 1F and Arie, Jr. I wasn't sure if I could come awake fast enough to look at them all, so I did what comes naturally. I asked for more and by golly, my fairy came through............we all got more to look at. I'm sure there will be more to come out of the excitement of this last weekend.
Lots of good things this weekend here in Utah. Fund raisers for Sub4Santa that apparently generated a good amount of mullah to help little ones have a nice Christmas. A record breaker amount from what I hear was made and I think mostly because of two great guys.......1F and Arie, Jr...........
To the social network ladies who literally gave me a lot of inspiration this weekend, I say thank you. I'm so glad that we have this one..........huge.........person in common. I never feel as if I am alone anymore with this obsession of mine with 1 F. If I ever consider becoming a cougar (which by the way I could if I truly wanted to), I could definitely alter my obsession and really fantasize about 1 F. But for right now, I will stay focused on being just me. A person happily married for a lot of years. I'll continue to be obsessed with 1 F and his company, all the wonderful things he does, how he makes people feel......I won't lie as I do like to look at eye candy. I really am human and I am allowed to look and heaven help me if he was in the same room with me, I would touch....but in all honesty, if 1 F and Sam Elliott came walking down the street together and I had a choice to make between the two of them.......there would only be one of them that I would gladly park my cowgirl boots under the bunk..............now you can fantasize and decide for yourself which one that would be....
p.s. Okay I lied to you all........I do fantasize about 1 F. Who in their right mind that has seen this person not want to fantasize about him..........I went to bed Saturday night not with sugarplums dancing in my head, but a vision of 1 F strutting around in the ol' gray matter...........Wow........
My inspiration comes from the social media network that is so powerful these days. Both good and bad. Last weekend was for me a nightmare of stupid, idiotic crap, that was running rampant on the Internet like a bad case of diarrhea, in regards to 1 F.......this weekend it's totally different. Same social media network. This weekend is nothing but pure pleasure. Turned on the laptop Saturday at an ungodly hour in need of a serious wake up and I got it. Coffee wasn't ready yet so didn't think my eyes would open wide enough to read, let alone gaze upon a nice morsel of meat, oh sorry......MAN. Just a minor slip of the keys in typing......sorry, not sorry........Before my eyes was a nice video that had 1F and his partner in crime (actually business comrade) Cody Barker plucking rose petals and making wishes..........that was a nice way to open my eyes that had been closed shut tightly and didn't want to budge open due to the ungodly hour of the morn.........Had to watch it more than once. Needed to embed the imagines in my brain. This was to keep my eyes open....truly.......and the day and evening just kept getting better and better with pics galore to ogle about. Still haven't quite figured out why 1 F is so dang fascinating to watch. And, right now I don't really want to find out the real cause. I'll continue to look and listen to him............
Sooooooooooooo, what happens when you wake up on a sunny, snow covered Sunday, turn on the laptop, wait again for the coffee to be done? What happens is that you find yet again another reason to gaze at the plethora of pics that have magically appeared by a wonderful twitter fairy who sprinkled my screen (and everyone elses who looked at them) with 1F fairy. Lots and lots of 1F and Arie, Jr. I wasn't sure if I could come awake fast enough to look at them all, so I did what comes naturally. I asked for more and by golly, my fairy came through............we all got more to look at. I'm sure there will be more to come out of the excitement of this last weekend.
Lots of good things this weekend here in Utah. Fund raisers for Sub4Santa that apparently generated a good amount of mullah to help little ones have a nice Christmas. A record breaker amount from what I hear was made and I think mostly because of two great guys.......1F and Arie, Jr...........
To the social network ladies who literally gave me a lot of inspiration this weekend, I say thank you. I'm so glad that we have this one..........huge.........person in common. I never feel as if I am alone anymore with this obsession of mine with 1 F. If I ever consider becoming a cougar (which by the way I could if I truly wanted to), I could definitely alter my obsession and really fantasize about 1 F. But for right now, I will stay focused on being just me. A person happily married for a lot of years. I'll continue to be obsessed with 1 F and his company, all the wonderful things he does, how he makes people feel......I won't lie as I do like to look at eye candy. I really am human and I am allowed to look and heaven help me if he was in the same room with me, I would touch....but in all honesty, if 1 F and Sam Elliott came walking down the street together and I had a choice to make between the two of them.......there would only be one of them that I would gladly park my cowgirl boots under the bunk..............now you can fantasize and decide for yourself which one that would be....
p.s. Okay I lied to you all........I do fantasize about 1 F. Who in their right mind that has seen this person not want to fantasize about him..........I went to bed Saturday night not with sugarplums dancing in my head, but a vision of 1 F strutting around in the ol' gray matter...........Wow........
Tuesday, December 4, 2012
1F Jef - Peace & Joy
I needed a bit of inspiration this morning. Found it.......love social media. Twitter can be so inspiring at times. Other times, not so much. After a hellacious weekend of media bashing, I took a step back, turned it all off, and meditated.....with the help of a good TV series I've just begun to watch, and of course, a good, no great, glass of wine (maybe two glasses. I wasn't counting). I still take great delight in following the life of 1 F Jef and his pals.
This morning when I turned on the laptop, I felt like I had just struck gold. Before me was a great picture of Peace (@jefholm) and Joy (@ariejr). I wondered if this person was going to use it as their Christmas card this year. I'm seriously thinking about it. It's nice to know that there are people in this world that think more on a positive level than a negative level and I thank you this twitter person(s) for showing me that people do exist in this world.
You make of this world what you want out of it . I want nothing but happiness. I strive for it each day. It makes no sense to be unhappy. With happiness.... peace, love, understanding, falls into place. So when I turn on the computer each morning to catch up on the latest events, media coverage or bashing, I either choose to ignore the negative, see only the positive, or file it in my brain as a future obsession to write about. I did this over the weekend. I chose to file the media bashing on 1 F in the round file. Unfortunately, I quickly gathered it right back up and put it in another file that won't get trashed!. I still and will continue in my mind and soul, defend this young man. Until I am proven wrong, 1 F still has it in my book, integrity and a passion for life. Not just his, but for everyone in this world. What is in that last sentence to bash about with this person? Nothing, absolutely nothing. His private life is that. Private. I would love nothing more than to see that sparkle come back into those eyes. He deserves to be happy. Don't get me wrong, Ms. Em deserves to be happy too. But 1 F will always be a front runner in my heart. He happens to live in my backyard. There is something said about loyalty.
1 F you make my heart smile and sing to high heavens. I love what you do, the passion you have for it. I marvel at the friends you surround yourself with. You make life very interesting to follow. You leave by example....I'm sure of it now.
This morning when I turned on the laptop, I felt like I had just struck gold. Before me was a great picture of Peace (@jefholm) and Joy (@ariejr). I wondered if this person was going to use it as their Christmas card this year. I'm seriously thinking about it. It's nice to know that there are people in this world that think more on a positive level than a negative level and I thank you this twitter person(s) for showing me that people do exist in this world.
You make of this world what you want out of it . I want nothing but happiness. I strive for it each day. It makes no sense to be unhappy. With happiness.... peace, love, understanding, falls into place. So when I turn on the computer each morning to catch up on the latest events, media coverage or bashing, I either choose to ignore the negative, see only the positive, or file it in my brain as a future obsession to write about. I did this over the weekend. I chose to file the media bashing on 1 F in the round file. Unfortunately, I quickly gathered it right back up and put it in another file that won't get trashed!. I still and will continue in my mind and soul, defend this young man. Until I am proven wrong, 1 F still has it in my book, integrity and a passion for life. Not just his, but for everyone in this world. What is in that last sentence to bash about with this person? Nothing, absolutely nothing. His private life is that. Private. I would love nothing more than to see that sparkle come back into those eyes. He deserves to be happy. Don't get me wrong, Ms. Em deserves to be happy too. But 1 F will always be a front runner in my heart. He happens to live in my backyard. There is something said about loyalty.
1 F you make my heart smile and sing to high heavens. I love what you do, the passion you have for it. I marvel at the friends you surround yourself with. You make life very interesting to follow. You leave by example....I'm sure of it now.
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