1 f Jef, Eyes Wide Shut, pt 2

Before you begin this long read, grab a snack or two, and something to drink.  Something alcoholic is an option.  You may want to potty first, also.   This is a long one.  Sit back, fasten your seat belts, and hold on for the ride........

I'm a bit slow it seems.  It's taken me, what now, 4 or 5 weeks to finally figure out why I can't get into  Sean Lowes season......it's sooooooooooooo obvious.  It's all the woman, well not all.  I feel like I am watching the playground of a grown up nursery school.  These woman are so not their stated ages.  We have Tierra, the 2 year old, a few 3 years olds, and some 5 year olds.  They all have one thing in common.........they still suck their thumbs, cry on demand, and they still wear a nappy to bed at night.  (Not all of the little ladies fall into this category though. I DO have my favs that I am watching out for).  I have to admit, it's getting better and better to watch as Sean ventures to new places.  I could definitely fall in love in Montana.  Gorgeous being Sean, and breathtaking being Montana.  Two for the price of one.  Bonus!!!!  I'm hoping we are getting down to the nitty gritty juicy stuff.  I want so bad to see more of the grown ups come out and play with Seans heart strings, swim suit strings (oops).  Let's get on with the party. Let the string pullin' begin.......

Not going to comment on either episodes of The Bachelor this time.  I'm holding on to my thoughts as the babes are filtered out and the good ones are left and the real fun begins.... Okay...I can't keep quiet on last nights episode...the word "heartburn" describes how I felt.  If I could have reached through the TV screen and punched Tierra's lights out, I would have.  No amount of wine could have dulled my senses with her.  Please, I am asking for a miracle that Sean comes to his senses..Tonight, it's Tums, wine, and popcorn.  At least if I have to throw something at the TV while watching Tierra, the popcorn won't damage the screen and Charlie the dog will get her treats.  Was very sad to see Robin go...I  liked her and her personality. And Jackie, I'm pretty sure the wrong girl went home on this date.  Anyone ready for a therapy session tonight?

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I want to introduce myself to you.  My name is Sarah and I am a 1 f Jefaholic.  This is my story, and I am sticking to it........                 

I've been pulled into so many directions this past week.  I've had some great conversations with many people.  They've let me into their minds and opened my eyes a bit since I have been living with my eyes wide shut.  I'm still a 1 f Jef fan, and always will be.  But, I can also say that whichever path he chooses to follow, that will be on his shoulders.  You choose your own destiny. So why not let 1 f Jef choose his?  He's a big boy, with a huge heart, and probably has more soul to go around than any of us can imagine.  We, and I am including myself, want to be cynical at times, think the worst, but never hope for the best.  We all make choices in this life.  Some good and some bad. And since 1 f Jef has become the center of our attention, we seem to be focusing on what he should do, rather than let him make his own mistakes, which he has, but also learn from his mistakes, which he is doing.

My eyes have opened up.  Shadows of doubt have tried to penetrate my heart.  It didn't work. I'm talking about...did he really break up with the flavor of the week,  the one some don't like, or is he really playing us for fools, seeing her still, and ignoring the one that matters the most.  My heart is still pumping full in all four chambers.  Still care about the kid.   I do care about Emily Maynard, too.  How can we expect either Emily or Jef to move on with or without each other?  We're all in their faces telling them to get back together.  I want them back together, you want them back together.  But do they want to get back together?  I still say time will tell........color me all sorts of stupid with your crayons.  I'll use my colored markers, draw me a magic wand, and wave it all about and spread some fairy dust around, after I draw the fairy dust of course.....

I've been told a lot of stuff.  Some good, some bad.  All of it though, are opinions that were  formed and told to me.  Nothing concrete at all that I can go and look for myself.  Nothing that I am willing to put down on paper or in this case, type on a screen.   Pictures don't lie and I have yet to see anything along that line that tells me he's playing us for fools.  If he is moving on with his life, then don't you think we should let him?  I am still believing in the fairytale ending with it saying "and they lived happily ever after."..........

I love looking at pictures.  Pictures of 1 f Jef.  I admit it, I am a Jefaholic.  And lately, we've been blessed with a few pics of him.  If you haven't seen the latest pics, let your fingers do some walking across the internet.  Pinterest is a FABULOUS place to waltz across the keyboard.  I have a personal portfolio going now.......Great pics of 1 f and Emily.....and solo shots of the man himself.  I am so blessed to know that I am not the only crazy out there with this obsession...I love you peepers!  1 f Jef, you can contribute a few more pic. s  Just sayin'....

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Don't read too much and don't think too much in what I write about.  I really do love the Bach/ette.  Some seasons more than others take a bit longer to warm my inner soul and this latest season is one of them.  It  does make for good TV watching when we need to park our brains at the door of life and just have fun. 1 f Jef is my fun and my flavor of the week (and hours, days, months)....and Sean Lowe, I'm giving you a place in my heart, too............

I'm headed away from the cold and snow to warm sand, ocean breezes, palm trees, and fruity drinks with umbrellas, and Mickey Mouse.  Have camera, and IPad, will travel.  I am road trippin' to sunny California come Friday.  My home, away from home.......no blog for 2 weeks..but I can still tweet!