Sunsets, wine, warm sand, ocean breezes, frolicking in the ocean........what's missing? Besides me not being in this picture, not a damn thing is missing. I promised myself that I would take my mind away from all the drama, bullshit, and everyday problems of life and put myself in a happy place on a daily basis. After seeing life start to pass me by and looking at life through those of a childs', I cannot afford to waste any of the precious seconds available to me. I am getting older. I am getting wiser to the ways of the world. I am getting to a point in my life that surrounding myself with the simple things, like the air I breath, Mother Natures canvas of art, family, and friends, that is just about all I need to continue to exist in this world. The only material things I need are my camera to capture the visions of what the world has to offer. And to help me remember what I've seen once the gray matter turns to mush. There isn't a day that goes by, that the pictures I see on the outside are the same. Life is never the same. It changes by the second......my words of advice, capture and keep the most precious moments of your life close to your heart, in your mind and your soul. Share what you learn. Pay it forward. Don't mock people because of who they are or what they have wrong with them. It's likely they are thinking the same about you. If you glow on the inside, you shine on the outside. I'm drawn to people that shine and for lack of a better word that has been over used lately..........SPARKLE......you are my glitter in life, that piece that seems to be stuck on me and cannot be picked off.
Emily Maynard will always take center stage in my heart and I'm learning to let go. Letting go of the reality that the happy ending that I want, is not meant to be. I'm not seeing the end of single life for 1 f Jef with KB though. His heart is still with his "everything". KB is not that. She may be his
"something", but not his "everything". Only one person, in my eyes, will be his "everything". All other 1 f Jef wanna be' girlfriends, will never be his "everything". Ems' mold was broken, too.
Just like weeds growing in a garden, another love interest has sprouted up from the earth. Golly gee, we leave one relationship over a weekend, and by the next weekend, BAM!, we've got ourself a new love. I'm on pins and needles now waiting for next weekend to come. Will 1 F Jef have another new love dangling from his heart strings? Or will he hit "repeat" and start all over again? Any relationship he dives into is doomed. It will never be what it needs to be, a relationship because there won't be one. Or if there is, then it's pretty much one sided as far as deep feelings go. The media will not let him go. He's tied himself up in silly string pretty tight. The only release he will get, is from focusing on what really is important......, growing up, acting like a founder of a new thriving company, and letting the rest of his life fall into place naturally. Sound advice? I think so. Does that mean I will not follow 1 f Jef anymore? Nope, not at all. I'm still 100% in favor of whatever falls into his lap. Whether it be good or bad. Yes, damage was done in watching the Bachelor/ette. 1 f Jef did damage us all. We wanted that happy ending and we did not get it. So we've become angry, bitter, and sad...and we've lost our focus, too..............
I have a love hate relationship with the social media that is now available. Sometimes I learn so much that it's overwhelming, it plays mind games with me, that I have to try and figure it all out. It really boils down to, not believing everything I hear and certainly not believing everything I read, too. Learning to trust my own instincts didn't happen over night, but overnight I did let it disappear a bit into oblivion. Today, is a new day. Today I have a new attitude. A new outlook on 1 f Jef, Em, KB and the new flavor of the week!....
My 1 f Jef-a-holicism will take a long time to cure, if ever. I'm thinking about opening up a special treatment facility, where all the 1 f Jef addicts could congregate and seek treatment. Treatment would be constantly viewing the subject matter on big screen tv's, eating copious amounts of popcorn, possibly throwing it at the screen, partaking of a beverage of choice (this is not an alcohol treatment center), venting our anger, and then laughing so uncontrollably that we pee our pants. Bring your own adult sized nappy's. Curability rate will depend on how severe your addiction to 1 f Jef is. I will always have some kind of tremor showing when his name pops up, or he prances across a screen. It's hard to give up something you enjoy. Willpower is not an easy thing to have when you crave something so deliciously sweet....My human being will be cured of 1 f Jef. As for me, Sarah, the inner child, I will never be cured....
I am getting off the real reason me, Sarah the inner child, started this blog. I started it to help express my fondness for 1 f Jef, and the love story that was being created. I seem to have ventured off the track. No matter who 1 f Jef ends up with, the decision is his totally alone (well, maybe a little influence from the family also). I don't particular care for smack talk. But, I confess that I have been guilty of listening to it and telling it. You may not like the company he keeps, but don't lose site of the person he is. He does have youth on his side and does sometimes act a bit childish. But...we all do that at some point in our life, too. He is human after all..and he is a good piece of human flesh to look at.. I'm trying to not lose my focus of 1 f Jef and let the people out there that think he is the root of all evil influence me in thinking he is the cause of all wrong doing. Just like dancing, it takes two to make the steps work. If one trips, the other most likely will fall, too. What I write comes from my heart. What I feel comes from my soul. Each time your heart beats, its a hug from me. I share my thoughts about 1 f Jef because there is really no one else like him. He's infected me with such a virus that it's impossible to be treated for it. As long as he lives, breathes, and walks upon this earth, he will always be front and center. I just have one request for 1 f Jef. Be careful on what you post. Be careful on who you choose to live your happily ever after with. Never let out of your sight, the real reason you are front and center in our lives. People Water is how I found you. Not the Bachelorette. I want to see more of your involvement in People Water and less of your personal life. The Bachelorette is my bonus as I can view you anytime, anywhere, all in the comfort of my pj's if I want. I have #tf who still feel like I do. We want nothing but the best from our blue eye'd boy and for our blue eye'd boy. Who else do you know that can mesmerize you with his voice, and hypnotize you with his eyes, all at once? I can't think of anybody else...............1 f Jef.........stay focused on People Water. The rest of your life will fall into place.
Thanks for following me on twitter. I love chatting with you all. Making new friends is what life is all about. Be happy, always. Let your inner child out to play. Do something out of the ordinary if you are living an ordinary life. Most importantly, just live................I've enjoyed a 3 month hiatus from my job and it's now come to an end and I've been summoned back to work. The blog of my inner child will be posted (hopefully) on Mondays now for the next little while. As long as 1 f Jef keeps filling up my inner childs brain, she will continue to post.
I have no comments for Sean and his final choices. This is where I pay attention, keep my thoughts to myself, and enjoy the remainder of his season. I know who I am pulling for.......
@CotySimon
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