1 f Jef, I Hope, I Hope...

More often than not, my human host will wake up after she smells the coffee..  But not totally until the effects of caffeine has made a quick rally through her veins and has penetrated her brain.  At times I do question her mental status even with her wake up beverage in her.   She really is a good person.  I know because I reside inside her.  Deep in side.   She lets me out to play.  She knows that I need fresh air.  I need to look at what's going on in this world.  I need to listen to the sounds of life living on.  I need to touch the glory of what is around me.   As long as I play nice with the other kids, she lets me out to play.  So knocking sense into someone is out of the question....at least for right now......

I have been watching, listening and searching for any type of info on what is going on with Mr. 1 f Jef. Something is not right.  Something is going on.  Something is happening.  Something has already happened.  That "something" has a whole lot of people wondering, pondering, and contemplating.  Voicing opinions once again on a matter that none of us have a clue about.   But being the inner soul of a human being, I also fall victim of the same feelings.  I also wonder what goes on in the mind of 1 f Jef, the people surrounding him, the meat and potatoes of People Water.  There is a change coming on.  Just like the weather, I feel it in my bones.  A strong storm is coming.  I've been waiting for some kind of report, a warning, or something........anything to help ease the fear.  But so far nothing has come about.  I hear that no news, is good news....well f*@k that.  News is what I need to hear.  We all need to know that all is well on the home front.  I don't like to be held by a thread, hanging upside down, by my toenails, waiting for answers.  But........guess I will have to hang upside down like everyone else and wait............what a head rush........

In the meantime as I wait for answers, I'll gaze at a fine piece of photography that came out over the weekend, actually it was an okay piece of work. The caption that went along with it  "Never back down from a challenge"...was a perfect line for the picture.  But, the picture was not quite right.  I had to make it better by zooming in on the subject matter.  The subject matter of 1 f Jef, standing so tall and gorgeous on a stone pedestal waiting to jump in to the oblivion of a chlorinated pool.  No telling if he actually jumped or not.  If he did, I hope he came out okay.  If he didn't, then I hope crawling back down he didn't scruff up those pretty little knees or gouge any of that beautiful torso he has developed.  Or did you land in the bed of cactus that looks like it was reaching for you?  Falling short I don't think was an option.  Was that your challenge?  Or, does it mean something entirely different?

Wow.........technology these days with computers allowing us to zzzzzzzzzzoooooooooom in on pictures.  Enhance all or part of the picture.  Crop and rotate......technology is a fine thing to have when it comes to viewing 1 f Jef...........Yummy, delicious, beautiful, fantastic, scrumptious, holy-hell-hot, and I'm not describing the garden of cactus either.  Yes, technology is nice......and in living color, too!!! I do have a question in my mind.  What are you wearing?  Was this a spur of the moment, I-dare-you challenge?  Cause, it certainly looks like you're standing in your Calvin Kline.....or something similar! Just wonderin'.............

Even looking at pictures, it still brings a sadness over me.  There is tension in the air that is so thick a knife couldn't cut through it.  The tension has been building awhile.  It doesn't take one being a rocket scientist to figure something is amiss.  My human self knows the power of words.  How words can effect someone.  Saying something nice and complimentary can make someone feel alive and special.  Saying something rude, crude, or down right mean, can cut someone to the quick and make them feel horrible, awful, even if it's not intentional.   In this case, it was intentional.   Not necessarily to make the person feel awful or horrible, but to let them know that different lifestyles can alter ones beliefs.  One might have more than the other, but it certainly shouldn't affect the goal at the end.  IG is a source to look at amazing photographs and also say what you feel.  Saying what you  mean in the moment.  Is that what happened last week?  Pictures and words to hurt?  Again, just wonderin'........

I'm not writing in riddles.  Just what I see in print.  Reading the many opinions of a lot of people. Putting pieces of a puzzle together myself.   I was  hoping for some kind of press release, a statement from 1 f Jef, or from..........somebody, someone, anybody on why there is an empty space on People Waters Peeps Crew page.  Why is he missing?  Why is he not there?  If a new picture is to be put in his place, then why isn't it there already?  Why has 1 f Jef, been quiet all week?   Who, what, and where are you 1 f Jef?  Your fans with inquiring minds want to know.

Between the ying and yang of Cody and 1 f Jef, they have indeed unfollowed each other on twitter and IG.  This leads many people to believe that 1 f Jef is gone from the company.  I did notice that Cody has listed himself as Founder, Chief Water Giver at People Water on IG. Is he saying he is the Founder of Chief Water Giver (meaning Cody himself)?   Or is he saying he is the Founder and Chief Water giver (meaning he is the sole founder of PW)?   Why have we not heard what is going on?  Something is not right.

People Water is not going anywhere.  The company is still strong.  I still support it.  Always will, regardless of where 1 f Jef is.  People Water is a local company here in Utah. I support the locals.  I buy from the locals.  Whatever 1 f Jef decides to do or is still doing, I will support him also.  I will also support Cody Barker, too.  These two are ying and yang.  One balances out the other.  If what I am reading is true, then they've lost the balance between them.  I hope not.  Friendship is something you don't want to take lightly at all.  Friendship is like being married, you have to take the good times along with the bad.  People anymore give up and don't fight for what is right.  They give up, move on and hope they can survive with something or someone else.  They don't work for it or at it anymore.  If you believe so strongly in something, then that should always be your goal.

My favorite sport to watch is soccer whether it be American or international.  Love futbol........ In this game, there is a 50 yard line.  The object of the game is to cross that 50 yard line in the middle of the field, and kick the ball into the opposing teams net.  It takes team work to get the ball down there and into the net.  You kick the ball back and forth.  Sometimes the opposing team takes the ball away and tries to kick it across that 50 yard line and into your net, thus making your dream of scoring a goal, a distant dream because the ball is further away.  But you rally back. You take the ball away.  You fight for it.  You push and shove.  And, you also hope that life doesn't throw you a yellow caution card your way, or even worse a red card.  A red card is the last thing you want.  In means you're out of the game. You have to leave the field.  You're done. Is that what has happened?  A red card has been issued, and someone is now out of the game?

I hope, for more love, more joy and laughter

I hope, we'll have more than we'll ever need

I hope, we'll have more happy ever afters

I hope, we can all live more fearlessly

And we can lose all the pain and misery

I hope, I hope

(Chorus - I hope - Dixie Chicks)

I hope, for more love, more joy and laughter, I hope that we'll have more than we'll ever need....is that too much to ask between the two guys?  They have a history, a vision, a friendship. But I am seeing dislike, sadness and unhappiness.

I hope, we'll have more happy ever afters...yes, I know, I'm still hoping for that fairy tale ending.  I'm a girlie girl and I can hope!!!  Truthfully, I want a good happy ever after for PW, Cody, and 1 f Jef.  Whatever has happened, or is happening, or maybe nothing is happening, I just want to see a good outcome, for all of them.  Life is way too short to carry grudges, to harbor hurt, and hate.  At some point in time regret will ease in to their souls.  Live your life with no regrets.  Or at least try to live your life that way.  It's not a perfect world out there.  These two are not perfect either.  Flaws are there.  Cracks in the foundation will exist in anything.  It's these cracks that need to be filled in and it's the base of all good companies and people.  Filling in the cracks takes work.......

I hope, we can live more fearlessly, and we can lose all the pain and misery.......I hope, I hope..........there must be a way to change what's going on.  No, I don't have all the answers........

The words in the chorus and the last line above,  are now my new words of wisdom.......


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1 f Jef, Simple Pleasures

All week long I have seen the sign of springs simple pleasures trying to burst forth out of the cold, frozen tundra of dirt.  Tulips are starting to peek through.  Crocus's are reaching out.  Ready to pop open in an array of bright colors.   Just being outside in temperatures greater than 60 is a simple pleasure.

While Charlie the dog is conducting her business and bonding with Mother Nature, I am also enjoying the change outside.  I am looking beyond the boundaries of the yard.  I see life beginning to come out from old man winters coat.

I'm hearing familiar sounds that spring is almost here.  The sounds of Robins singing.  Bees warming their wings.  Flapping the last effects of the winter chill.

The smell outside is fresh, clean.....my nostrils flare wide open as I snort the air that is beginning to smell like Mother Earth....awwww, spring time in the mountain west is awesome indeed.

Simple pleasures are different for everyone.  1 f Jef is a simple pleasure, and so is my dog.  1 f Jef is enjoying simple pleasures..........being single, running a thriving company, and being with family and friends.  What's wrong with 1 f Jef enjoying life's simple pleasures?  Nothing at all.

You have a fan base that is amazing.  A fan base that supports you, loves you, admires you.  And, you have another fan base that believes everything above, but also would like to rip you a new orifice.   I have to be honest.  I thought I could really open my mind up, let loose, and tear you a new one, too. But I can't.  Why?  Because there is absolutely nothing wrong with what you are doing.   I have to stay true to who I write about and that's 1 f Jef, the founder of People Water.  You are not the playboy, casanova, party hardy doll face that everyone thinks you are.  You are simply, enjoying life as you see it.  No explanations are needed on your actions as you are doing what any normal male would.  You've enjoyed family time, bro time with a good friend, and you've continued with more family time on a beach, soaking up the rays, enjoying good music and maybe tipping back a few brews.  Life's simple pleasures.  Time away from the maddening crowd can do wonders.

I admit lately that you have had me at a loss for words.  Speechless at times.  Dumbfounded.  Stuck in the middle of some black hole that had me struggling.  I wanted very badly to throw in the towel.  Give up.  Quit.  And, never look back.  Leave you trying to get back up the hill after you've hit rock bottom in your love life.  But, I can't do it.  I am not your #1 fan.  I am just a small speck of a person who cares about you, along with a group of friends that support what I do.  Me writing about a good person, with a good cause, and has a good heart, because I can write it like I see's it!!! I write my feelings, but they are actually their's, too.  We just happen to be on the same wave length.  I occasionally will pick up the old tin can with the string attached, hold it up to my ear, and listen to the conversations out there about you, 1 f Jef.   I read what's posted.  Some of your fans tend to still be stuck in their own black hole.  They choose to hide behind locked forums and closed minds.   I do hear about some of the negative crap discussed.  I won't bend and tell everyone out in this world that you are a bad person.  Because, 1 f Jef, you are not. You might be a bit lost at the moment, but you are not a bad person.   You are what you are.  A simple pleasure of my life and many others, who know what is important and what is not.  Idle gossip is not important.  That is not a simple pleasure in life, even though it can make for lively conversation.

Just sayin'........that's all.  Just sayin' that trying to stay positive can be hard.  I will prevail and stay positive for you 1 f Jef..........Just sayin'..........simple pleasures are a gift.

Pictures speak louder than words.  It can bring joy and pleasure to not only the person taking the pictures, but to those who view them.  I love photography.  I love looking at beautiful pictures. And, I love taking pictures.   What I haven't seen lately, are pictures or proof of the pudding that 1 f Jef is the party hardy playboy everyone makes him out to be.  All I have seen are  words written by smitten college girls that will write anything to cause a stir and make their BFF's jealous because they were there,  they saw 1 f Jef, and their friends didn't.  I was in their shoes at one time and a bit of embellishment I'm sure spewed out of my mouth on occasion.  It's natural when you are around stars brighter than heaven to make that memory last.  But they are just empty words.  Pictures all in black.

Last  week was filled with memories.  You shared with us your thoughts on how you felt to be the Catherine on your season.  I think someone still cares very much about his "everything".  You brought a glimmer of hope to us.  That picture spoke love.  A love that so many people wish they could duplicate in their life.    It's hard to let go of someone you love with your heart and soul.  You showed us that you really are human and not a figment of our imagination.    I hope that you can see Sean and Catherine as a fine example that love can and will survive, even though it was found in an unconventional way.  You found it and Emily found it this way.  Go after each other, you two.  Meet in the middle or better yet, climb the ladder and rescue her.  Whisk her off to a remote island.  Anything. Both of you, please quit swallowing the bitter pills.  It has a bad after taste.

I've grown accustomed to 1 f Jef's smile, his baby blue eyes, that will never fail me, to want to reach out and just hug him like a child would a teddy bear.  That big squeeze feeling that makes you warm all over.   A simple, but very real pleasure.

My friends, old and new, are all wonderful simple pleasures that I will cherish forever.   My family, even though they try my patience, are also my simple pleasures in life and one that I will never take for granted.   Simple pleasures do not have to be complicated and you've shown me that.   Simple pleasures are enjoying the life you have now, and not worry about what will take place tomorrow.

Holy shit this is getting deep....good god, it's time to watch you stroll on a beach in Curacao, with no shirt on..............where is that 1 f Jef and what have you done with him?  Come back to us.........

Life is beautiful when you open your eyes.

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1 f Jef, Just Wondering.....

Just wondering..........

why has it been so difficult for me to write about someone this week who has never had me at a loss for words.....I'm experiencing brain paralysis.  

Just wondering............

if the fermented grape juice that I consume tonight, the finger licking chocolate that I pop in my mouth,  the popcorn, and the box of kleenex that I use after watching the Final Rose for Sean, will it give me the much needed inspiration I need to finish out this wreck of a thought process I am struggling with on 1 f Jef...............?????????????????

I've looked forward to this night and I've also dreaded it coming.  I'm looking forward to Sean getting down on one knee and proposing to the one he loves.  I am a happily ever after old broad.  I was crushed that the fairy dust I sprinkled disappeared.  I was crushed that my wand broke in two and cannot be mended.  I need this to know that love does exist in this cruel world.   I've dreaded this season coming to an end.  I'm feeling the jitters starting as my brain heads into withdrawal mode................

                 

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 Just wondering, 1 f Jef...............

how did you feel seeing Sean, your Bachelorette bro, find love, then drop to one knee and propose?  What was your heart doing when Sean proposed?  Was your own heart breaking more for what could have been? Should have been?  Made me cry and it made my heart crack in several more places.  In fact, the sound of breaking hearts could be heard all over.  Hearts breaking for you.   The vision of you on your knee is still too fresh in our minds.  Thank goodness my Bachelor survival kit came in handy.  Peanut butter M&Ms, and popcorn . A mouthful of crazy.  Chased it all down with wine......then a handful of Kleenex to purge my brains out...........It turned out to be a two box night of snot rags.  A whole box consumed wiping away the happy tears for Sean and Catherine.  They are going to make it.  The second box, were for tears shed for the memories I have of your proposal that will never go away in my heart.   This was not a one time binge and purge session. It happened several times over 3 hours last night.  Just wondering........did you relive your moment last night?   I did...and my stomach hates you for it.  One thing I forgot in my survival gear..........Tums............

Just wondering, 1 f Jef..............

are you sad that it has all come to an end for you?   For Sean and Catherine, it's just beginning.  Catherine was my choice.  Love that girl.   I see their "ever after" falling in to place. As far as being the most dramatic final rose ceremony.....EVER......that didn't happen for me.   You and Emily had the most dramatic, most romantic season and final rose to date.  It's going to take someone with your charisma, and Emily's class and beauty, to beat it.  That will never happen.  I will say it again,  the molds of you two were broken.  Forever shattered into tiny little chards that cannot be glued back to together to make it whole again.   Just wondering....if I hit rewind, could you and Emily put all the pieces back together again?  

Just wondering.........

are you seriously entertaining the possibility of being the next Bachelor for ABC?....do you honestly think that love for you can be found on a TV show?  Sorry tootsie, all that is going to happen will be through the roof ratings for the Bachelor and 25 gals with claws a mile long all trying to scratch their way into your heart.  The ladies will be there not for love, but for the prize at the end of the race. YOU.   And knowing that they got to try to grope their way into your heart and hope that you fall in love with them.  They will already be in love with you.  There will be no slow trot down the path for them.  They will be coming at you full gallop.  You ought to ride off into the sunset in a cloud of their dust.  Find love the old fashioned way.  Earn it......but good luck with that...........I'm seeing the player coming out again.............

I'm happy for Sean and Catherine.  Catherine was my pick for him.  I'm glad they are are making definitive plans to walk down the isle.  I'm glad that we all get to see it.  But, 1 f Jef,  just wondering, if you and Emily have regrets.  Regrets of not seriously having a tribesman marry you in Africa.  It seems that the challenges you both faced there, would have cemented the relationship forever.   Just wondering.....if you can get your act together and ride away with your princess.   Just wondering...will you ever cease to amaze me............Just wondering....have you lost focus again on whats important?  You were quiet for 2 weeks.  Was that your mourning period?  Just wondering....................

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1 f Jef , Eat Chocolate

I like being an inner child.  I'm reminded again, that life is precious, time is ticking away, and that some people are just not friendly.  I'm not fond at the moment of human nature.  People, personalities, lifestyles....we're all different.  If we were all alike, this world would be boring and uninteresting.  What I like, you may hate and vice versus.  This is human nature........but when it gets out of hand, that's when I don't like humans and their nature!!!  I like this quote "Chocolate doesn't ask silly questions.  Chocolate understands".  I eat chocolate........a lot.......

Mean people bother me.  I have no place in my heart for meanness.  I don't tolerate it from myself.  I realize that peoples meanness is their insecurities surfacing.  But why share your meanness.....twitter is a wonderful source for relaying information to a large population of people without ever leaving your easy chair.  You share ideas, quotes, thoughts, feelings on twitter.  People comment.  Put their 2-cents worth in.  I do, my human self does, and a whole lot of other humans out there and also their inner children.  Twitter is used for all sorts of communication, awareness, and stupidity..............

I am very fond of 1 f Jef.  I've never denied it and in fact have admitted that I am somewhat obsessed with the kid.  Not because he is pleasing to the eye (I know he is!!), but the philanthropy  of 1 f Jef and his company. His looks and voice are the bonus parts I get.   I don't think for one second that 1 f Jef ever lost focus with his company.  Twitter on the other hand, is making sure to everyone that he's a player, a womanizer, a fame whore.............The media has a way of sticking in me, little pieces of doubt that plague me when I start listening to Mr. Reasonable Doubt. The media baffles me with bullshit at times.  1 f Jef himself stated that "very rarely do people take me seriously because of the way I dress, the way I act.  I like being underestimated, because people, if they really care enough to get to know me, they are pleasantly surprised.  I'm very different from other business owners, because I am YOUNG and want to ENJOY life."  These lines from his mouth, bring me back to reality.

I don't have to look far for inspiration when it comes to writing down my thoughts on 1 f Jef.  Lately, though, I've had a hard time keeping my fingers from lashing out on a keyboard, exactly how I feel about some people.  What it boils down to, it's none of my business and it's none of their business, what 1 f Jef does.  The only person he's hurting, if he's hurting anyone at all, is himself.  There are too many people out there in cyberspace world, that want to take the fantasy away from me.   Why do you care?  Holding on to a bit of the "happily ever after", helps keep me holding on to hope.  I know it probably won't happen, but I can dream and hope.  No one can take away my dreams, my hopes, my desires.  The only person who can do that is me, myself, and I.......no one else.  If reading about 1 f Jef bothers YOU, and it bothers YOU that me, and all the other people out there, still want to hope, wish, and dream, then push the "ignore" button in YOUR brain and move on.   It's a free country and we do have freedom of speech, but we also have the freedom to let people choose what they want to hear and see.  I choose to see the good in 1 f Jef, and I choose to hear it, too.  And, I choose to read how people will still defend 1 f Jef and Emily.  I still feel that if its meant to be, it will be meant to be.  I will continue to look and listen to 1 f  Jef.  I'm not hurting anyone but me.   I am choosing to look beyond his youth at times, and see the adult in him focus on a good company. I also don't have to look at your comments on 1 f Jef and how he should do this and that. Or how I should move on and get a life.  I do have a life.  A wonderful life.  1 f Jef just happens to give me a creative outlet for my thoughts.  It's the brainless people that seem to comment on how I should get over it and move on.  If they had a brain in their head, I think they might see beyond the end of their nose and see a whole world out there.  But they are brainless..............which also makes them sightless and deaf..........

"If you treat people like shit, it's going to be thrown right back at you.  Don't wait to be covered in it before you realize that you are the pile of shit that stinks".....author....ME

As long as 1 f Jef exists on this planet, there will be people who will take it upon themselves to let me  know that I need to move on.  I will.  But not until I want to.  He's just a small portion of what fascinates me in life.  He's a small portion of what intrigues me.  He's a small portion of my fantasy.  He is Prince Charming.........Emily will always be the Queen.  Whoever he chooses in the long run of his life, will be a princess, but never the Queen of Hearts.

Hope is always there.  It sometimes just hibernates until you poke the bear and it wakes up.  My parting thoughts: " Dazzle yourself with brilliance, eat chocolate, and never erase a smile off your face."...

love,

Me.........

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