Just wondering..........
why has it been so difficult for me to write about someone this week who has never had me at a loss for words.....I'm experiencing brain paralysis.
Just wondering............
if the fermented grape juice that I consume tonight, the finger licking chocolate that I pop in my mouth, the popcorn, and the box of kleenex that I use after watching the Final Rose for Sean, will it give me the much needed inspiration I need to finish out this wreck of a thought process I am struggling with on 1 f Jef...............?????????????????
I've looked forward to this night and I've also dreaded it coming. I'm looking forward to Sean getting down on one knee and proposing to the one he loves. I am a happily ever after old broad. I was crushed that the fairy dust I sprinkled disappeared. I was crushed that my wand broke in two and cannot be mended. I need this to know that love does exist in this cruel world. I've dreaded this season coming to an end. I'm feeling the jitters starting as my brain heads into withdrawal mode................
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Just wondering, 1 f Jef...............
how did you feel seeing Sean, your Bachelorette bro, find love, then drop to one knee and propose? What was your heart doing when Sean proposed? Was your own heart breaking more for what could have been? Should have been? Made me cry and it made my heart crack in several more places. In fact, the sound of breaking hearts could be heard all over. Hearts breaking for you. The vision of you on your knee is still too fresh in our minds. Thank goodness my Bachelor survival kit came in handy. Peanut butter M&Ms, and popcorn . A mouthful of crazy. Chased it all down with wine......then a handful of Kleenex to purge my brains out...........It turned out to be a two box night of snot rags. A whole box consumed wiping away the happy tears for Sean and Catherine. They are going to make it. The second box, were for tears shed for the memories I have of your proposal that will never go away in my heart. This was not a one time binge and purge session. It happened several times over 3 hours last night. Just wondering........did you relive your moment last night? I did...and my stomach hates you for it. One thing I forgot in my survival gear..........Tums............
Just wondering, 1 f Jef..............
are you sad that it has all come to an end for you? For Sean and Catherine, it's just beginning. Catherine was my choice. Love that girl. I see their "ever after" falling in to place. As far as being the most dramatic final rose ceremony.....EVER......that didn't happen for me. You and Emily had the most dramatic, most romantic season and final rose to date. It's going to take someone with your charisma, and Emily's class and beauty, to beat it. That will never happen. I will say it again, the molds of you two were broken. Forever shattered into tiny little chards that cannot be glued back to together to make it whole again. Just wondering....if I hit rewind, could you and Emily put all the pieces back together again?
Just wondering.........
are you seriously entertaining the possibility of being the next Bachelor for ABC?....do you honestly think that love for you can be found on a TV show? Sorry tootsie, all that is going to happen will be through the roof ratings for the Bachelor and 25 gals with claws a mile long all trying to scratch their way into your heart. The ladies will be there not for love, but for the prize at the end of the race. YOU. And knowing that they got to try to grope their way into your heart and hope that you fall in love with them. They will already be in love with you. There will be no slow trot down the path for them. They will be coming at you full gallop. You ought to ride off into the sunset in a cloud of their dust. Find love the old fashioned way. Earn it......but good luck with that...........I'm seeing the player coming out again.............
I'm happy for Sean and Catherine. Catherine was my pick for him. I'm glad they are are making definitive plans to walk down the isle. I'm glad that we all get to see it. But, 1 f Jef, just wondering, if you and Emily have regrets. Regrets of not seriously having a tribesman marry you in Africa. It seems that the challenges you both faced there, would have cemented the relationship forever. Just wondering.....if you can get your act together and ride away with your princess. Just wondering...will you ever cease to amaze me............Just wondering....have you lost focus again on whats important? You were quiet for 2 weeks. Was that your mourning period? Just wondering....................
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