1 f Jef, Sometimes....

Once I write a blog, post it, I move on to the next.   Sometimes I have 2 or 3 in the works.  Sometimes I will use one that I have started.  Sometimes I don't.  Sometimes I delete them all and start all over again.

Sometimes I wish I could hit "delete" and start over again on certain parts of my life.  But, if I do that, I wouldn't be where I am today.  Sitting here typing useless, senseless words on a computer screen about someone who fascinates the hell out of me...........Sometimes I don't get the good times I want.  Sometimes.....some times has to be good enough.

What has happened to 1 f Jef?  I keep getting a glimpse of him.  Glimpses I like.  He's smiling.  He's happy.  No worse for the wear.  He doesn't appear to be letting anything or anyone bother him.  Laid back, chillin' out.  Being the too cool 1 f Jef we all want to see.  The confident, this-is-my style, 1 f Jef.......I wonder is he back?

Whats the next step for the man, 1 f Jef?  The rocky mountains that envelop me here in the west, stand straight and tall. They loom over the valley.  They are mighty and powerful structures to reckon with. You need to know your way up in the mountains in order to make your way down again.  1 f Jef...have you made your way to the top and can't find your way down again?  Or are you a mighty force to reckon with?  Can't tell these days.  There is still snow covering the mountains.    I've developed the what, where, and who are you 1 f Jef syndrome.  What are you?  Where are you?  Who are you?  Three easy, simple questions that beg to be answered.  Only you can answer them.  Just as I love looking at the mountains covered in snow and soon to be replaced with green , I also enjoy 1 f Jef..........at times though, I'm not seeing YOU.......what's covering you up?

I'm excited to see what Zagg has put together honoring business people, such as 1 f Jef.  He is an inspiration to many people.  The young people have someone on their level to look up to and at.  Supposedly, today April 1, 1 f Jef will make the Zagg You-Tube debut on his business life.   The drive and ambition he has makes me tired just reading about his ventures.  I wonder what watching him is going to do.  He is  the youth of today.   A business leader of today and tomorrow.   I marvel at his ambition.  His drive.  His motivation.  He never stops.  He is on high energy constantly.  Riding the Red Bull maybe?  But, I still am not seeing him........a glimpse is not seeing him.

I wonder though, if some of his high adventures, his energy, will come back to haunt him in the years to come.  I wonder if his actions will scream at him.  Not his business actions, but his personal actions.   I know he likes to be underestimated, but in doing so,  it sure is making him look a little creepy at times.   This is where judging people can be harmful.  Too many people out there are judging him one way and one way only.  I think it's the only direction they know how to travel.  Their direction is going south.  Little do they know that there are 4 directions to choose from.   I find myself cringing a bit when I see or hear something about 1 f Jef that is negative.  But I also have to look at where that negativity came from.  Gossips mags.  They are the guilty culprit in most of this.  The other is what the Internet gossip columns and forums are discussing.  For the most part, it's amusing.   I will always marvel the ability  people have to convince someone that this is what he is all about, who he is, what he is......they also suffer from the same who, what, where, syndrome.  But, let's face it.  They don't know anything more than I do.  And, I know zilch, nada, nothing............me, the inner child.  My human host knows as much about 1 f Jef as I do..........just what we read.  Or what 1 f Jef posts.  His posts and pics are what give us all an insight to him.

Yesterday was Easter Sunday.  Family time, good food, great conversations and the season finale to The Walking Dead and of course.....chocolate.    A momentous day.  After the family left, all the food  put away, kitchen  clean, the season finale of The Walking Dead had ended, it was time to turn on the computer, and see what was happening in the social world of cyberspace and pop more M&M peanut butter eggs in my mouth.

I found the best entertainment I've seen since Emily Maynards' season of The Bacherlotte was on.  A conversation was going on between some bachelor bro's, Arie Jr, John Wolfner, Chris, and 1 f Jef on Twitter.  Wolf got the ball rolling, reminiscing about spending Easter Sunday in an old church in Croatia.  According to John W., one that had little running water, let alone electricity.  There is a tale to this story as told by Wolf.  Probably funny to some and not so funny to others.  Not worth spending 10 seconds to type it out.  But typing out what an experience for any of us to spend Easter Sunday in an old, eclectic church, would have been very high on my bucket list of things to-do and is worth those 10 seconds I used.

I will take the time to pound out the practical joke from 1 f Jef, busting through a door, saying he was getting kicked off the show for inappropriately touching Emily and having Elan, one of the producers be in on the joke too, yelling at 1 f Jef. Anybody who has seen Elan, I think knows that he can probably look pretty menacing when he wants to.  He's got the looks for it.  The looks on the faces of the bachelors, I'm sure were priceless. I can hear the WTF's, the OMG's, and the, you-really-touched Emily and please tell us where exactly, from the guys, before the joke was really on them.   Who says men can't be drama queens!!!!   How about keeping Arie up all night when he was having his one-on-one with Emily the next day, throwing things in the pool.  Pretty sure, they were quite vocal, also.   I'm sure the list can go on and on and on with the practical jokes they pulled on each other.   The back and forth story telling between all of them was priceless. It was the best hour of a Bachelor or Bachelorette season I've had since then.  I have often wondered what goes on behind the scenes once filming stops for the night or day.  Or does it happen 24/7.  Not sure.  I wish ABC would bring back some of that seasons bach's and have a round table discussion between them.  Let them tell their side of being under house arrest and what they did to stay amused and entertained.  Show us the film.  They've got to have enough film to fill a warehouse on them.   What I read yesterday I'm sure is not nearly half of what really went on.  The stories that could be told..............wow...........That would be another hour of entertainment and high ABC ratings.  Since the Bachelor Pad has been cancelled......hmmmmmm, just a thought and an idea.

I would like to hear good news about 1 f Jef.  There is a reason for his lack of chatter and visual aids, for all of us to read.  Something is still going on behind the scenes of his life.  Not that it really matters, but it does matter.  It involves a big piece of his working life.  What is the next venture for you 1 f Jef?

Sometimes.....some times, is it really good enough?