Sunsets, wine, warm sand, ocean breezes, frolicking in the ocean........what's missing? Besides me not being in this picture, not a damn thing is missing. I promised myself that I would take my mind away from all the drama, bullshit, and everyday problems of life and put myself in a happy place on a daily basis. After seeing life start to pass me by and looking at life through those of a childs', I cannot afford to waste any of the precious seconds available to me. I am getting older. I am getting wiser to the ways of the world. I am getting to a point in my life that surrounding myself with the simple things, like the air I breath, Mother Natures canvas of art, family, and friends, that is just about all I need to continue to exist in this world. The only material things I need are my camera to capture the visions of what the world has to offer. And to help me remember what I've seen once the gray matter turns to mush. There isn't a day that goes by, that the pictures I see on the outside are the same. Life is never the same. It changes by the second......my words of advice, capture and keep the most precious moments of your life close to your heart, in your mind and your soul. Share what you learn. Pay it forward. Don't mock people because of who they are or what they have wrong with them. It's likely they are thinking the same about you. If you glow on the inside, you shine on the outside. I'm drawn to people that shine and for lack of a better word that has been over used lately..........SPARKLE......you are my glitter in life, that piece that seems to be stuck on me and cannot be picked off.
Emily Maynard will always take center stage in my heart and I'm learning to let go. Letting go of the reality that the happy ending that I want, is not meant to be. I'm not seeing the end of single life for 1 f Jef with KB though. His heart is still with his "everything". KB is not that. She may be his
"something", but not his "everything". Only one person, in my eyes, will be his "everything". All other 1 f Jef wanna be' girlfriends, will never be his "everything". Ems' mold was broken, too.
Just like weeds growing in a garden, another love interest has sprouted up from the earth. Golly gee, we leave one relationship over a weekend, and by the next weekend, BAM!, we've got ourself a new love. I'm on pins and needles now waiting for next weekend to come. Will 1 F Jef have another new love dangling from his heart strings? Or will he hit "repeat" and start all over again? Any relationship he dives into is doomed. It will never be what it needs to be, a relationship because there won't be one. Or if there is, then it's pretty much one sided as far as deep feelings go. The media will not let him go. He's tied himself up in silly string pretty tight. The only release he will get, is from focusing on what really is important......, growing up, acting like a founder of a new thriving company, and letting the rest of his life fall into place naturally. Sound advice? I think so. Does that mean I will not follow 1 f Jef anymore? Nope, not at all. I'm still 100% in favor of whatever falls into his lap. Whether it be good or bad. Yes, damage was done in watching the Bachelor/ette. 1 f Jef did damage us all. We wanted that happy ending and we did not get it. So we've become angry, bitter, and sad...and we've lost our focus, too..............
I have a love hate relationship with the social media that is now available. Sometimes I learn so much that it's overwhelming, it plays mind games with me, that I have to try and figure it all out. It really boils down to, not believing everything I hear and certainly not believing everything I read, too. Learning to trust my own instincts didn't happen over night, but overnight I did let it disappear a bit into oblivion. Today, is a new day. Today I have a new attitude. A new outlook on 1 f Jef, Em, KB and the new flavor of the week!....
My 1 f Jef-a-holicism will take a long time to cure, if ever. I'm thinking about opening up a special treatment facility, where all the 1 f Jef addicts could congregate and seek treatment. Treatment would be constantly viewing the subject matter on big screen tv's, eating copious amounts of popcorn, possibly throwing it at the screen, partaking of a beverage of choice (this is not an alcohol treatment center), venting our anger, and then laughing so uncontrollably that we pee our pants. Bring your own adult sized nappy's. Curability rate will depend on how severe your addiction to 1 f Jef is. I will always have some kind of tremor showing when his name pops up, or he prances across a screen. It's hard to give up something you enjoy. Willpower is not an easy thing to have when you crave something so deliciously sweet....My human being will be cured of 1 f Jef. As for me, Sarah, the inner child, I will never be cured....
I am getting off the real reason me, Sarah the inner child, started this blog. I started it to help express my fondness for 1 f Jef, and the love story that was being created. I seem to have ventured off the track. No matter who 1 f Jef ends up with, the decision is his totally alone (well, maybe a little influence from the family also). I don't particular care for smack talk. But, I confess that I have been guilty of listening to it and telling it. You may not like the company he keeps, but don't lose site of the person he is. He does have youth on his side and does sometimes act a bit childish. But...we all do that at some point in our life, too. He is human after all..and he is a good piece of human flesh to look at.. I'm trying to not lose my focus of 1 f Jef and let the people out there that think he is the root of all evil influence me in thinking he is the cause of all wrong doing. Just like dancing, it takes two to make the steps work. If one trips, the other most likely will fall, too. What I write comes from my heart. What I feel comes from my soul. Each time your heart beats, its a hug from me. I share my thoughts about 1 f Jef because there is really no one else like him. He's infected me with such a virus that it's impossible to be treated for it. As long as he lives, breathes, and walks upon this earth, he will always be front and center. I just have one request for 1 f Jef. Be careful on what you post. Be careful on who you choose to live your happily ever after with. Never let out of your sight, the real reason you are front and center in our lives. People Water is how I found you. Not the Bachelorette. I want to see more of your involvement in People Water and less of your personal life. The Bachelorette is my bonus as I can view you anytime, anywhere, all in the comfort of my pj's if I want. I have #tf who still feel like I do. We want nothing but the best from our blue eye'd boy and for our blue eye'd boy. Who else do you know that can mesmerize you with his voice, and hypnotize you with his eyes, all at once? I can't think of anybody else...............1 f Jef.........stay focused on People Water. The rest of your life will fall into place.
Thanks for following me on twitter. I love chatting with you all. Making new friends is what life is all about. Be happy, always. Let your inner child out to play. Do something out of the ordinary if you are living an ordinary life. Most importantly, just live................I've enjoyed a 3 month hiatus from my job and it's now come to an end and I've been summoned back to work. The blog of my inner child will be posted (hopefully) on Mondays now for the next little while. As long as 1 f Jef keeps filling up my inner childs brain, she will continue to post.
I have no comments for Sean and his final choices. This is where I pay attention, keep my thoughts to myself, and enjoy the remainder of his season. I know who I am pulling for.......
@CotySimon
Tuesday, February 26, 2013
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
1 f Jef, Foolish Feelings
I've spent the last 10 days seeing life through the eyes of children, two sets of parents, a grandmother, one of my best friends, and my own two eyes. The children really opened my eyes to a world of innocence and love. Seeing life this way made me realize time is short, time is not on my side and that I shouldn't take it for granted. I need another vacation to recoup from the one I just got back from....I now know what exhaustion feels like......it was worth it. This was a mind cleanse. Rid the brain of the old and stale. Start filling it back up again with new memories. It's fun to have an inner child that loves to come out and play. And what better place to get lost in is at Disneyland....and then cleanse my soul and free my mind of clutter than by being on a beach, smelling the salty air and taking photos of some of the most beautiful sunsets I've seen in a long time.........
I talk to myself and I don't feel bad talking to myself because I'm actually holding conversations with my inner child. She has some answers to questions and thoughts that often plague me with doubt. I'm learning to trust her, my inner soul. So far, so good.........as long as I don't answer myself, I'm not crazy.....or am I?
Sarah, my dear inner child, sometimes wishes, for a brief moment or two, that she was younger, prettier, and not so married. The not-so-married part is when 1 f Jef comes in to the picture. I would have loved to be the Valentine date this year. I'm pretty sure I am not the only one who wished the same thing. Twitter was alive with wanna be's........except for the ones that are totally blaming 1 f Jef for the Jemily breakup. I have to admit that this was a good piece of marketing strategy on People Waters part. It worked as it funded several mechanics to fix wells where they are needed. Do whatever it takes to promote the good. I really want the girl who won the date to spill the beans a bit though. I'm sure 1 f Jef was or will be (has he done the date yet?) a gentleman, as he always is. Well the gentleman that my mind thinks he is anyway. Again, doubt is trying to creep into my gray matter.
Monday nights sesh with the Bachelor is driving me real close to the nearest alcohol rehab center. That is if drinking a glass, although brimming, with fermented grape juice constitutes me being an alcoholic, then so be it. The popcorn that gets popped prior to the show, Charlie the dog is getting fat from eating what I throw at the screen. I've been doing that a lot lately, throwing the popcorn. I thought I had Seans season figured out, and I am still on track I do believe, that it's immaturity on all levels of the playing field. The girls are young, too young I think for this show. I still feel they are fresh out of high school. Sean is young, good looking, but also a bit boring, and it's not his fault. Chris Harrison is also boring. Too serious and he appears to be bored also.......the live tweeting from everyone was boring. Even 1 f Jef was boring. No fun, no pizzaz. It would be nice if he would interact more with his fans on Twitter. But, then there are the stupid people that take it upon themselves to post something stupid and lame, after he tweets his comments. So, on the other hand, I don't blame him for not interacting more. But, he could, if he wanted to. Arie Jr, didn't have much to say. Apparently, everyone fell asleep during last nights viewing.........my inner child was even quiet last night, until it was almost over then she became overwhelmed with the crazies that she begged to be let out and so I did...........
What I need now moving forward is more hot and steaming. Overnighters are here. At least with 1 f and Em, I knew what they were thinking by the look on their faces......priceless......and damn, too bad "role model" came into play. My inner child will not keep quiet on Tuesday nights sesh with Sean. I just hope it's got a bit more stamina to it or I am going to lose it. I am not impressed at all this season with Sean. Love the guy, but not the show so far, except for when Catherine comes into view. She's my personal favorite. She has that gleam in her eye that tells me she has a little devil riding on her shoulder from time to time that likes to come out and play. Nothing more needs to be said. I'd almost go for watching Bentley all over again on Ashleys season. At least he was entertaining, even though I wanted to kill the SOB.............
While I await Tuesdays date with Sean.........1 f Jef still is heavy on my mind. I don't like the fact that Katianna is back into the scene, but it seems that when 1 f Jefs friend, TR Gourley is around, so is Katianna Bear......Are they joined at the hip? Where one goes, the other follows too? Oh, well. Mistakes are made, and mistakes are corrected. 1 f Jef, come to the party dude, and make up your mind. Are you with her? Or not? I still care, but self respect on your part is leaning a bit and might be toppling over....I know you don't have anything to prove to anyone other than what a marvelous company you have. One of my favorite country songs has a line in it, "these foolish feelings are still fooling me"......fool me once, but not twice. You won't like the results. So quit pussy footin' around and let the cat out of the bag and tell us...........for real........is she your main squeeze or not? If I knew, then maybe I could move onward and upwards, instead of taking a downhill slide every week when the shit hits the fan from the presses. Why do I care? 1 f Jef really is none of my business, but he's become my business and everyone elses, when he signed on the dotted line as a contestant on the Bachelorette. Bonus for us he came out the the fiancee of what I thought was a beautiful love story, a romance novel in the works, a happily ever after love story.........My thoughts are a bit cloudy it seems lately. I'm hoping for some clarity at some point. One thing for sure, I still need to follow my heart, my soul, and my gut instinct. Prove me wrong 1 f Jef. Prove me wrong that you still don't have the feelings, the "you are my everything", about Emily. I don't see that kind of attachment with anyone else. Whomever that someone else might be if not Em, has some pretty elegant shoes to fill. No one in my book will never have the same chemistry that radiated out of the TV screen as you two had. Never, ever...........and the best home date.......ever!!!
I can get on with my life now until next Monday. I've decided that I am not a gumball machine filled with pretty words. I cannot put a quarter in me and expect pleasantries to drop out on a whim. But if I try hard enough, I can replace those negative, awful tasting words, with something sugary, sweet and colorful. I will try to do just that. I'm better than that. I don't like talking trash about people and I've given in to the sins of trash talk. Forgive me Sean, for I have sinned...........just perk the rest of the season up a bit, okay? I'd love to have a cheshire cat grin on my face.......and I hope tonight is worth watching. Popcorn....check.....Charlie the Dog.....check, check........I'll nurse one glass of good grape juice, color to be determined.....check, check.....and check.......and hopefully some good twitter therapy.....check, check, check, and check.
Tuesday, February 5, 2013
1 f Jef, Eyes Wide Shut, pt 2
Before you begin this long read, grab a snack or two, and something to drink. Something alcoholic is an option. You may want to potty first, also. This is a long one. Sit back, fasten your seat belts, and hold on for the ride........
I'm a bit slow it seems. It's taken me, what now, 4 or 5 weeks to finally figure out why I can't get into Sean Lowes season......it's sooooooooooooo obvious. It's all the woman, well not all. I feel like I am watching the playground of a grown up nursery school. These woman are so not their stated ages. We have Tierra, the 2 year old, a few 3 years olds, and some 5 year olds. They all have one thing in common.........they still suck their thumbs, cry on demand, and they still wear a nappy to bed at night. (Not all of the little ladies fall into this category though. I DO have my favs that I am watching out for). I have to admit, it's getting better and better to watch as Sean ventures to new places. I could definitely fall in love in Montana. Gorgeous being Sean, and breathtaking being Montana. Two for the price of one. Bonus!!!! I'm hoping we are getting down to the nitty gritty juicy stuff. I want so bad to see more of the grown ups come out and play with Seans heart strings, swim suit strings (oops). Let's get on with the party. Let the string pullin' begin.......
Not going to comment on either episodes of The Bachelor this time. I'm holding on to my thoughts as the babes are filtered out and the good ones are left and the real fun begins.... Okay...I can't keep quiet on last nights episode...the word "heartburn" describes how I felt. If I could have reached through the TV screen and punched Tierra's lights out, I would have. No amount of wine could have dulled my senses with her. Please, I am asking for a miracle that Sean comes to his senses..Tonight, it's Tums, wine, and popcorn. At least if I have to throw something at the TV while watching Tierra, the popcorn won't damage the screen and Charlie the dog will get her treats. Was very sad to see Robin go...I liked her and her personality. And Jackie, I'm pretty sure the wrong girl went home on this date. Anyone ready for a therapy session tonight?
I want to introduce myself to you. My name is Sarah and I am a 1 f Jefaholic. This is my story, and I am sticking to it........
I've been pulled into so many directions this past week. I've had some great conversations with many people. They've let me into their minds and opened my eyes a bit since I have been living with my eyes wide shut. I'm still a 1 f Jef fan, and always will be. But, I can also say that whichever path he chooses to follow, that will be on his shoulders. You choose your own destiny. So why not let 1 f Jef choose his? He's a big boy, with a huge heart, and probably has more soul to go around than any of us can imagine. We, and I am including myself, want to be cynical at times, think the worst, but never hope for the best. We all make choices in this life. Some good and some bad. And since 1 f Jef has become the center of our attention, we seem to be focusing on what he should do, rather than let him make his own mistakes, which he has, but also learn from his mistakes, which he is doing.
My eyes have opened up. Shadows of doubt have tried to penetrate my heart. It didn't work. I'm talking about...did he really break up with the flavor of the week, the one some don't like, or is he really playing us for fools, seeing her still, and ignoring the one that matters the most. My heart is still pumping full in all four chambers. Still care about the kid. I do care about Emily Maynard, too. How can we expect either Emily or Jef to move on with or without each other? We're all in their faces telling them to get back together. I want them back together, you want them back together. But do they want to get back together? I still say time will tell........color me all sorts of stupid with your crayons. I'll use my colored markers, draw me a magic wand, and wave it all about and spread some fairy dust around, after I draw the fairy dust of course.....
I've been told a lot of stuff. Some good, some bad. All of it though, are opinions that were formed and told to me. Nothing concrete at all that I can go and look for myself. Nothing that I am willing to put down on paper or in this case, type on a screen. Pictures don't lie and I have yet to see anything along that line that tells me he's playing us for fools. If he is moving on with his life, then don't you think we should let him? I am still believing in the fairytale ending with it saying "and they lived happily ever after."..........
I'm headed away from the cold and snow to warm sand, ocean breezes, palm trees, and fruity drinks with umbrellas, and Mickey Mouse. Have camera, and IPad, will travel. I am road trippin' to sunny California come Friday. My home, away from home.......no blog for 2 weeks..but I can still tweet!
I'm a bit slow it seems. It's taken me, what now, 4 or 5 weeks to finally figure out why I can't get into Sean Lowes season......it's sooooooooooooo obvious. It's all the woman, well not all. I feel like I am watching the playground of a grown up nursery school. These woman are so not their stated ages. We have Tierra, the 2 year old, a few 3 years olds, and some 5 year olds. They all have one thing in common.........they still suck their thumbs, cry on demand, and they still wear a nappy to bed at night. (Not all of the little ladies fall into this category though. I DO have my favs that I am watching out for). I have to admit, it's getting better and better to watch as Sean ventures to new places. I could definitely fall in love in Montana. Gorgeous being Sean, and breathtaking being Montana. Two for the price of one. Bonus!!!! I'm hoping we are getting down to the nitty gritty juicy stuff. I want so bad to see more of the grown ups come out and play with Seans heart strings, swim suit strings (oops). Let's get on with the party. Let the string pullin' begin.......
Not going to comment on either episodes of The Bachelor this time. I'm holding on to my thoughts as the babes are filtered out and the good ones are left and the real fun begins.... Okay...I can't keep quiet on last nights episode...the word "heartburn" describes how I felt. If I could have reached through the TV screen and punched Tierra's lights out, I would have. No amount of wine could have dulled my senses with her. Please, I am asking for a miracle that Sean comes to his senses..Tonight, it's Tums, wine, and popcorn. At least if I have to throw something at the TV while watching Tierra, the popcorn won't damage the screen and Charlie the dog will get her treats. Was very sad to see Robin go...I liked her and her personality. And Jackie, I'm pretty sure the wrong girl went home on this date. Anyone ready for a therapy session tonight?
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My eyes have opened up. Shadows of doubt have tried to penetrate my heart. It didn't work. I'm talking about...did he really break up with the flavor of the week, the one some don't like, or is he really playing us for fools, seeing her still, and ignoring the one that matters the most. My heart is still pumping full in all four chambers. Still care about the kid. I do care about Emily Maynard, too. How can we expect either Emily or Jef to move on with or without each other? We're all in their faces telling them to get back together. I want them back together, you want them back together. But do they want to get back together? I still say time will tell........color me all sorts of stupid with your crayons. I'll use my colored markers, draw me a magic wand, and wave it all about and spread some fairy dust around, after I draw the fairy dust of course.....
I've been told a lot of stuff. Some good, some bad. All of it though, are opinions that were formed and told to me. Nothing concrete at all that I can go and look for myself. Nothing that I am willing to put down on paper or in this case, type on a screen. Pictures don't lie and I have yet to see anything along that line that tells me he's playing us for fools. If he is moving on with his life, then don't you think we should let him? I am still believing in the fairytale ending with it saying "and they lived happily ever after."..........
I love looking at pictures. Pictures of 1 f Jef. I admit it, I am a Jefaholic. And lately, we've been blessed with a few pics of him. If you haven't seen the latest pics, let your fingers do some walking across the internet. Pinterest is a FABULOUS place to waltz across the keyboard. I have a personal portfolio going now.......Great pics of 1 f and Emily.....and solo shots of the man himself. I am so blessed to know that I am not the only crazy out there with this obsession...I love you peepers! 1 f Jef, you can contribute a few more pic. s Just sayin'....
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Don't read too much and don't think too much in what I write about. I really do love the Bach/ette. Some seasons more than others take a bit longer to warm my inner soul and this latest season is one of them. It does make for good TV watching when we need to park our brains at the door of life and just have fun. 1 f Jef is my fun and my flavor of the week (and hours, days, months)....and Sean Lowe, I'm giving you a place in my heart, too............
I'm headed away from the cold and snow to warm sand, ocean breezes, palm trees, and fruity drinks with umbrellas, and Mickey Mouse. Have camera, and IPad, will travel. I am road trippin' to sunny California come Friday. My home, away from home.......no blog for 2 weeks..but I can still tweet!
Thursday, January 31, 2013
1 f Jef Eyes wide shut
This is out of the norm for me to post something so quickly. But, my brain is in overload and the gray matter inside is about to explode. I really don't want to lose anymore brain cells. I need them all. I feel that if I don't write this all down now, it will get so distorted inside my head that I won't be able to "see" it clearly if at all.......so here goes...
I want to thank the new followers I have picked up. You follow me, I will follow you. I will respect your opinion, as long as you respect mine. I'm entitled to breath the air and so are you. It's not ever going to be pissing contest. We are equals. No one is better than the other. This blog is purely for entertainment purposes. I happen to like the subject matter I write about, even with the imperfections that are being shown to me. You will not always agree with my logic, and I may not agree with yours either. I'm okay with that. If we all agreed with each other, what would we have to chat about? If you feel I am "following" you to garner information, you are wrong. Totally wrong. I like making new friends, young or old, weak or strong. I'm an equal opportunity type gal. I see the good in everything and everyone. I won't use any information I gather and hold it against you. I won't use names, twitter handles, facebook accounts, instagram, anything to do with media, against you. EVER.......I won't quote you verbatim, but may use parts of any conversation as I see fit. I enjoy what I read from you all, and I hope you enjoy what I write about. Like I said, it's for entertainment purposes. I cannot speak fast enough with my thoughts going a hundred miles an hour. So writing about it helps slow my thought process down long enough for me to tell a story or two.......I am not a writer by any means. I am a person who has this creative brain cell (singular mind you), that loves to be kept busy and 1 f Jef fills a huge portion of that cell space.........
The Bachelor is on two nights next week, Monday and Tuesday. I've been posting my blog on Tuesdays, so I can comment on Sean Lowes season. I do have to put my two bits out there. I've got a rough draft partially done...I've finally figured out why I haven't been able to get really IN to the Bachelor and I want to make sure my brain cell is tracking it properly. I might or I might not post on Tuesday. Wednesday for sure!
I've been living the last week with my eyes wide shut apparently. A swift kick in the ass is all I needed and I was given the boot right where it counted......in the behind..............to be continued next week........
If you are new to my blog. welcome. If you want to follow me, please do so on twitter @CotySimon.
I want to thank the new followers I have picked up. You follow me, I will follow you. I will respect your opinion, as long as you respect mine. I'm entitled to breath the air and so are you. It's not ever going to be pissing contest. We are equals. No one is better than the other. This blog is purely for entertainment purposes. I happen to like the subject matter I write about, even with the imperfections that are being shown to me. You will not always agree with my logic, and I may not agree with yours either. I'm okay with that. If we all agreed with each other, what would we have to chat about? If you feel I am "following" you to garner information, you are wrong. Totally wrong. I like making new friends, young or old, weak or strong. I'm an equal opportunity type gal. I see the good in everything and everyone. I won't use any information I gather and hold it against you. I won't use names, twitter handles, facebook accounts, instagram, anything to do with media, against you. EVER.......I won't quote you verbatim, but may use parts of any conversation as I see fit. I enjoy what I read from you all, and I hope you enjoy what I write about. Like I said, it's for entertainment purposes. I cannot speak fast enough with my thoughts going a hundred miles an hour. So writing about it helps slow my thought process down long enough for me to tell a story or two.......I am not a writer by any means. I am a person who has this creative brain cell (singular mind you), that loves to be kept busy and 1 f Jef fills a huge portion of that cell space.........
The Bachelor is on two nights next week, Monday and Tuesday. I've been posting my blog on Tuesdays, so I can comment on Sean Lowes season. I do have to put my two bits out there. I've got a rough draft partially done...I've finally figured out why I haven't been able to get really IN to the Bachelor and I want to make sure my brain cell is tracking it properly. I might or I might not post on Tuesday. Wednesday for sure!
I've been living the last week with my eyes wide shut apparently. A swift kick in the ass is all I needed and I was given the boot right where it counted......in the behind..............to be continued next week........
If you are new to my blog. welcome. If you want to follow me, please do so on twitter @CotySimon.
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
1 f Jef Oh, my
Golly jeepers, what do I do? Continue to be faithful to ol' blue eyes, 1 f Jef or change allegiance and head for taller ground - Sean Lowe? Or "C" , both........I go back and forth. I've been a fool to let negative thoughts enter my brain and corrupt my way of thinking on 1 f Jef last week. Why do I care? Keep asking myself that question over and over again and have come to the conclusion that as long as he's living and breathing, then he's worth the fuss over. Ya can't replace a broken mold and he's irreplaceable. But, I can rethink my thought process if anything comes down the pipeline for him to burst this huge bubble I have surrounded myself in. Maybe that is why I am having such a hard time getting into Sean Lowe this season. It's not that Sean is not pleasantly appealing to my eyeballs, he most definitely is. I'd have to be blind in one eye, and not see out of the other to not notice the man, his body, and his personality.
Last night was once again a test of do I switch and watch something else besides the Bachelor or continue on with the pain, drama and yawns...what really kept me going last night was all the live tweeting going on before my eyes. I'm a hour behind the East coast so I see their live tweets and what was being said was so powerfully amusing, that it forced me to stay on task and watch the entire 2 hours. Frankly, I am glad that I did. It really helped me bring to focus what I would have missed otherwise. I'll get to my gray matter thoughts on 1 f Jef and last week week in a sec.........
Selma darlin'...could you get any cuter? Love this gal. Climb a rock mountain? Could you have climbed any higher? Wow......my favorite part of the date....were the trailers..loved them....why show us the inside and then stay inside? Too hot for comfort? Outside was not exactly cold...sorry no kissy face for Sean. If I were in her shoes, I would have done the same thing. But I do want to see the sparks fly even further in the sky and not just puddle on the ground.
What more can be said about Tierra than what has been said already.......someone nailed it on the head (Catherine maybe) that she is Tierra-ble.......girl, give it a rest so we can have a rest.........She is not worth 2 hours of my time......I think once someone says there is a bullseye on your back, that it means shoot me now and get it over with....could I ask for it to come now versus later?
Hated to see Leslie go, but if you don't have that spark, it ain't ever going to happen. There are somethings that you just can't fake. Kudos for Leslie as she did leave with style, class, and grace. I liked her. She was one of the good ones.........but then.........we got to see at least 3 minutes of Catherine and she is a front runner in my book. I hope she's on my TV screen for awhile and I hope we get to see more than 3 minutes of her.....
So....do I change allegiance and dip my toes into Texas territory, stay with 1 f Jef, or do both? Well, I'm not going to change guards, I'll stay loyal to 1 f Jef, his cause, his blue eyes, his voice....his walk and I'll continue to waltz down memory lane and watch reruns of the best Bachelorette season yet. Not saying that Sean Lowe is not a nice tall drink of Texas tea. He most definitely is. But he's being taken care of.....literally....by other people writing about his adventure and all the drama that goes with it. I'm not saying that I won't comment as I will. I definitely have to add my 2 cents worth into the mix because I just did!
But then......there is 1 f Jef.......the press of course was running wild all over Park City and 1 f Jef wasn't left without something being said. Whether he said it or not, it left me thinking how maybe we are all being played for fools. I could have sworn at one time that he wasn't involved with Katianna Bear. They were just friends. Was this his way of telling Wetpaint to back off, leave me alone, I'll tell you what you want to hear so you will leave me alone.......that is what I am believing. Tell them what they want to hear. Frankly, I like Katianna Bear. I also like Emily Maynard. What I really like and want, is for everyone to find whomever makes them happy in the long run........sometimes I wish I could gag certain people in the press, but if they didn't feel it was newsworthy, they wouldn't report it. No matter, it still sucks when you read or hear something negative about someone you care about. I wonder how they would feel if the shoe was on the other foot? Probably wouldn't care is what I think. I know it's horrible, but it does keep 1 f Jef in the limelight......my days are numbered I think on just how much I can fill a page up with my obsessive thoughts on 1 f Jef......maybe I should rewatch Season 8, comment on those episodes along with adding a few tidbits of Mr. Long Tall Texan Sean Lowe, into the mix from his season.......hmmmmmmmmm....I could certainly come up with some expressive adjectives on Season 8..that is if I just comment on the final 4........then 3, 2, and, then the final rose himself..........should I rehash the season for those of us who still want a fairytale ending? Or do I leave it alone? Heads or tails? You know, it could be kind of fun.........
Here is what I really, really think...........my heart tells me that 1 f Jef and Emily are not through yet. I don't think they have ever been through. Smoke and mirrors, lots of smoke and mirrors.......it's funny what the press forces people to do and I hope this works out for them. I really do. Fairytale endings are supposed to happen.........if it's meant to be, it's meant to be....will I be disappointed if it really is over with? Yes, but life does go on and I'm a big girl....
Last night was once again a test of do I switch and watch something else besides the Bachelor or continue on with the pain, drama and yawns...what really kept me going last night was all the live tweeting going on before my eyes. I'm a hour behind the East coast so I see their live tweets and what was being said was so powerfully amusing, that it forced me to stay on task and watch the entire 2 hours. Frankly, I am glad that I did. It really helped me bring to focus what I would have missed otherwise. I'll get to my gray matter thoughts on 1 f Jef and last week week in a sec.........
Selma darlin'...could you get any cuter? Love this gal. Climb a rock mountain? Could you have climbed any higher? Wow......my favorite part of the date....were the trailers..loved them....why show us the inside and then stay inside? Too hot for comfort? Outside was not exactly cold...sorry no kissy face for Sean. If I were in her shoes, I would have done the same thing. But I do want to see the sparks fly even further in the sky and not just puddle on the ground.
What more can be said about Tierra than what has been said already.......someone nailed it on the head (Catherine maybe) that she is Tierra-ble.......girl, give it a rest so we can have a rest.........She is not worth 2 hours of my time......I think once someone says there is a bullseye on your back, that it means shoot me now and get it over with....could I ask for it to come now versus later?
Hated to see Leslie go, but if you don't have that spark, it ain't ever going to happen. There are somethings that you just can't fake. Kudos for Leslie as she did leave with style, class, and grace. I liked her. She was one of the good ones.........but then.........we got to see at least 3 minutes of Catherine and she is a front runner in my book. I hope she's on my TV screen for awhile and I hope we get to see more than 3 minutes of her.....
So....do I change allegiance and dip my toes into Texas territory, stay with 1 f Jef, or do both? Well, I'm not going to change guards, I'll stay loyal to 1 f Jef, his cause, his blue eyes, his voice....his walk and I'll continue to waltz down memory lane and watch reruns of the best Bachelorette season yet. Not saying that Sean Lowe is not a nice tall drink of Texas tea. He most definitely is. But he's being taken care of.....literally....by other people writing about his adventure and all the drama that goes with it. I'm not saying that I won't comment as I will. I definitely have to add my 2 cents worth into the mix because I just did!
But then......there is 1 f Jef.......the press of course was running wild all over Park City and 1 f Jef wasn't left without something being said. Whether he said it or not, it left me thinking how maybe we are all being played for fools. I could have sworn at one time that he wasn't involved with Katianna Bear. They were just friends. Was this his way of telling Wetpaint to back off, leave me alone, I'll tell you what you want to hear so you will leave me alone.......that is what I am believing. Tell them what they want to hear. Frankly, I like Katianna Bear. I also like Emily Maynard. What I really like and want, is for everyone to find whomever makes them happy in the long run........sometimes I wish I could gag certain people in the press, but if they didn't feel it was newsworthy, they wouldn't report it. No matter, it still sucks when you read or hear something negative about someone you care about. I wonder how they would feel if the shoe was on the other foot? Probably wouldn't care is what I think. I know it's horrible, but it does keep 1 f Jef in the limelight......my days are numbered I think on just how much I can fill a page up with my obsessive thoughts on 1 f Jef......maybe I should rewatch Season 8, comment on those episodes along with adding a few tidbits of Mr. Long Tall Texan Sean Lowe, into the mix from his season.......hmmmmmmmmm....I could certainly come up with some expressive adjectives on Season 8..that is if I just comment on the final 4........then 3, 2, and, then the final rose himself..........should I rehash the season for those of us who still want a fairytale ending? Or do I leave it alone? Heads or tails? You know, it could be kind of fun.........
Here is what I really, really think...........my heart tells me that 1 f Jef and Emily are not through yet. I don't think they have ever been through. Smoke and mirrors, lots of smoke and mirrors.......it's funny what the press forces people to do and I hope this works out for them. I really do. Fairytale endings are supposed to happen.........if it's meant to be, it's meant to be....will I be disappointed if it really is over with? Yes, but life does go on and I'm a big girl....
Tuesday, January 22, 2013
1 f Jef - You're some kind of wonderful
I cannot NOT comment on the newest season of The Bachelor with Sean Lowe..........call me crazy, nuts, mentally deranged, but I cannot get into this season.........yet.......Granted he does have super good looking bod to have my eyes hover over, but there has got to be more than this. The dates are okay, the make-you-stop and take notice dates are great. They do make you feel good when something, someone, or some cause is brought to our attention. I'm finding Sean, even though he is a great guy, and one that I would love to have around on a full-time basis, but I need some edge now to eek out of him somewhere. He's too nice. He's too damn perfect.........I'm hoping the girls that haven't had a lot of time with him yet, will ruffle his feathers a bit and bring out more of his character than just being a perfect specimen of male goodness with a heart of gold...........As far as the girls go...what else do you expect from a room of hormonal crazies, but drama, drama, and more drama. I know this makes for good TV watching, but they are all looking kind of bored right now. Something has got to happen, and not someone else throwing themselves down the stairs either............
Well then, did everyone get their personalized, one of thousand kind, note from 1 F last week? That is if you ordered something from their website? Got mine.....and so what if it wasn't literally addressed to me. I'll take what I can get. I'm not greedy at all............I'm just glad that I can hold it, look at it, and know that 1 f Jef put his paw print on it. And with x's and o's, too. I'll pretend that it was all just for me!! I cannot wait until we hear what wells are being built, or fixed from all of our donations......I definitely support People Water, the good it's doing, continues to do, and the future it holds for clean water to people who really don't know what clean water is........
I'm happy to view his goodness, 1 f Jef, in any way, shape or form.............and write all about it. I'm not too embarrassed to say that he is pleasant on the eyes...............oh how I could get wickedly dirty with words right now. He brings out the "best" in me when it comes to describing just what he is doing to the female population and I haven't even begun to bring it to the computer screen. Not even close to it when I wrote the "Dirty Dancing" bit.........I sure can put myself in Baby's shoes and waltz around 1 f while my fingers do the talking across his chest, back, arms,............there would be no more "this is my dance space, this is your dance space". While he is enjoying the single life, I hope he will continue bringing us wonderful pics to look at out even if Arie Jr is in the pics. I wouldn't mind being sandwiched between the two of them. I know you are thinking the same thing......I can read minds ladies. We all think a like and you're lying if you don't feel this way. Some of us may be married, but it certainly doesn't hurt for us to gaze and let our imagination take us away, and definitely put a huge smile across our face. What's good for the goose (they daydream too ladies) IS good for the gander (we can also daydream).
So 1 f Jef, I need to see those baby blues, daydream a little each day, let my imagination run wild, really wild. It's been a cold, cold winter, and knowing you're out there in this world, really warms my soul, puts a smile across my face, and many more faces out there.....don't be stingy with the pics darlin'.....we need pics, lots and lots of pics......with or without your bromancing buds....I'm not picky. I take what I can get, and when I can get it...........always ready for it........like NOW would be good. You really need a reality series of your own. Seriously........You Tube is fast becoming an enemy to me...I've seen it, watched it, heard it......need something fresh...shoot film of you skateboarding...anything........desperation is setting in. I need talking and movement. Lots and lots of movement would be good and talking, and talking oh, and more talking and movement, and talking and gazing into the camera for long periods of time....oh, and more talking with movement, too. That would be good.........
And for the naysayers out there that are not fond of 1 f Jef..........you're missing the boat people......closed minds don't get very far.....You're not letting go enough to open up your eyes and see what we all are seeing. A gorgeous, hunk of male, that is doing so much good for this world. All you are seeing is the color green and are damning yourself for not being just like him, or with him. Me on the other hand would rather look at the world right now through rose colored glasses, plaster a smile on my face, and be me.............someone who lets her blood boil, but not by getting angry.
I'm a diehard Bach/ette fan.....I'll continue to watch each week, pray that it gets better and hope for the outcome we all want......Sean to be happy and blissfully in love. As I keep saying, my heart still and will always belong to 1 f Jef........ holding on to all 4 chambers with such a grip that if he ever lets go, I hate to think what will happen.........1f Jef, you are good people and you give good therapy! This session is now over.......
One more thing, I found out that if I put certain words into the subject line, it sure brings out the crazy porno queens who want to follow me..............OMG I have to laugh. Sorry ladies, not interested.......
Well then, did everyone get their personalized, one of thousand kind, note from 1 F last week? That is if you ordered something from their website? Got mine.....and so what if it wasn't literally addressed to me. I'll take what I can get. I'm not greedy at all............I'm just glad that I can hold it, look at it, and know that 1 f Jef put his paw print on it. And with x's and o's, too. I'll pretend that it was all just for me!! I cannot wait until we hear what wells are being built, or fixed from all of our donations......I definitely support People Water, the good it's doing, continues to do, and the future it holds for clean water to people who really don't know what clean water is........
I'm happy to view his goodness, 1 f Jef, in any way, shape or form.............and write all about it. I'm not too embarrassed to say that he is pleasant on the eyes...............oh how I could get wickedly dirty with words right now. He brings out the "best" in me when it comes to describing just what he is doing to the female population and I haven't even begun to bring it to the computer screen. Not even close to it when I wrote the "Dirty Dancing" bit.........I sure can put myself in Baby's shoes and waltz around 1 f while my fingers do the talking across his chest, back, arms,............there would be no more "this is my dance space, this is your dance space". While he is enjoying the single life, I hope he will continue bringing us wonderful pics to look at out even if Arie Jr is in the pics. I wouldn't mind being sandwiched between the two of them. I know you are thinking the same thing......I can read minds ladies. We all think a like and you're lying if you don't feel this way. Some of us may be married, but it certainly doesn't hurt for us to gaze and let our imagination take us away, and definitely put a huge smile across our face. What's good for the goose (they daydream too ladies) IS good for the gander (we can also daydream).
So 1 f Jef, I need to see those baby blues, daydream a little each day, let my imagination run wild, really wild. It's been a cold, cold winter, and knowing you're out there in this world, really warms my soul, puts a smile across my face, and many more faces out there.....don't be stingy with the pics darlin'.....we need pics, lots and lots of pics......with or without your bromancing buds....I'm not picky. I take what I can get, and when I can get it...........always ready for it........like NOW would be good. You really need a reality series of your own. Seriously........You Tube is fast becoming an enemy to me...I've seen it, watched it, heard it......need something fresh...shoot film of you skateboarding...anything........desperation is setting in. I need talking and movement. Lots and lots of movement would be good and talking, and talking oh, and more talking and movement, and talking and gazing into the camera for long periods of time....oh, and more talking with movement, too. That would be good.........
And for the naysayers out there that are not fond of 1 f Jef..........you're missing the boat people......closed minds don't get very far.....You're not letting go enough to open up your eyes and see what we all are seeing. A gorgeous, hunk of male, that is doing so much good for this world. All you are seeing is the color green and are damning yourself for not being just like him, or with him. Me on the other hand would rather look at the world right now through rose colored glasses, plaster a smile on my face, and be me.............someone who lets her blood boil, but not by getting angry.
I'm a diehard Bach/ette fan.....I'll continue to watch each week, pray that it gets better and hope for the outcome we all want......Sean to be happy and blissfully in love. As I keep saying, my heart still and will always belong to 1 f Jef........ holding on to all 4 chambers with such a grip that if he ever lets go, I hate to think what will happen.........1f Jef, you are good people and you give good therapy! This session is now over.......
One more thing, I found out that if I put certain words into the subject line, it sure brings out the crazy porno queens who want to follow me..............OMG I have to laugh. Sorry ladies, not interested.......
Monday, January 14, 2013
1 f Jef - Hot topic
Who doesn't like to change things up? I may be new at this sort of thing called blogging, but I'm still doing this for my own amusement and fun. I've noted that readership goes way up when I put "Jef" in the subject line. I can have just 1f in the subject line and it still draws attention, but definitely not like putting the whole rolling off the tongue - 1 f Jef, in the subject line. Last week, I added a tidbit on Sean Lowe, the newest cast member to try and find the love of his life.......still put 1 f in the title, added Sean to it, too, but it's definitely not a draw. Too bad though as Sean is a some beef cake to look at and definitely gets the wheels and cogs a spinning in my brain.......
So it's back to using 1 f Jef in the subject line along with whatever wording I so happen to choose to use. There is never a dull moment when it comes to 1 f Jef. Twitter alone is alive with 1 f Jef. I find it amusing and I also find great comfort in knowing that he is still very much loved and admired. Pooh pooh on those of you who think otherwise. Jealousy is an ugly monster and that's exactly what some of you are showing. The ugly horns of jealousy. I found myself responding to some ugly tweets last week in regards to 1 f Jef........this person definitely needed a nap that day. In fact, hibernating was the more appropriate word for this person. This person is definitely not one that I follow, want to follow, or ever will follow. I think I've done a pretty good job in judging some good people out there that I am following and follow me. People that are on the same wave length. People that show kindness, gratitude, sympathy, and all sorts of emotions when it comes to peoples feelings and 1 f Jef. People who on one hand say they have your back, and do have your back, versus people who say one thing and do another. I happen to really like 1 f Jef. The person he is and admire how he can mesmerize the a good portion of the female population with just a look with those baby blue's........and be so sincere while doing it because that is who he is.........if he ever proves me wrong........then I will gladly admit that I am not a good judge of character. But so far, he's definitely good character, heart, and soul.
I'm loving the pic 1 f Jef posted of the chair lift, his reflection, and what's this?...........blonde hair showing? Geez people........so what..........I'm just loving the pics. The best one lately is the "high and tight" pic........Wow..........makes your heart start doing all sorts of funny things inside..........extra beats, maybe feel like it's going to jump right out of your chest. I sure could get dirty with that caption, but I'll let my mind jump out of the gutter long enough for yours to float by and make your own conclusions to that caption.........I could stare at those baby blues for ever and ever and ever.......It will be a sad day when we no longer hear anything about our main man, 1 f Jef. I really don't see that happening though, anytime soon. World War 3 will erupt I'm afraid if that ever happens or another great flood will materialize with all the tears being shed by lost souls who are saddened by not seeing 1 f Jef.......
I will watch Sean Lowe tonight. It's his time to shine, too..........plus we need his hotness to spread some warmth here where it's so cold.........
In the meantime, I may watch 15 minutes of 1 f Jef's finale.....again......I'm still a sucker for fairy tale endings. But, the book needs to be picked up and read. Starting at where it was left off at... No going back, no looking ahead to the ending. Just pick up the book, turn the page and read on..............and don't forget to look at the pictures along the way...........if only 1 F Jef and Emily Maynard could do this. If only..................
If you care to follow me on twitter it's @CotySimon......I don't bite, I don't spit. I play nice if you play nice with me.....I will have your back. I like making new friends. You never have enough people in your life, the right kind of people. Surround yourself with people that make you happy, pick you up when you're sad. Sit by you when you're sick, or hold your hand in a time of need..........my heart has plenty of room....you just to need to move in..........
I'm a sucker for reality TV, The Bachelor and Bachelorette, Downton Abbey, Drop Dead Diva.......love stories and romance. Letting the inner child I have inside of me out to play.
So it's back to using 1 f Jef in the subject line along with whatever wording I so happen to choose to use. There is never a dull moment when it comes to 1 f Jef. Twitter alone is alive with 1 f Jef. I find it amusing and I also find great comfort in knowing that he is still very much loved and admired. Pooh pooh on those of you who think otherwise. Jealousy is an ugly monster and that's exactly what some of you are showing. The ugly horns of jealousy. I found myself responding to some ugly tweets last week in regards to 1 f Jef........this person definitely needed a nap that day. In fact, hibernating was the more appropriate word for this person. This person is definitely not one that I follow, want to follow, or ever will follow. I think I've done a pretty good job in judging some good people out there that I am following and follow me. People that are on the same wave length. People that show kindness, gratitude, sympathy, and all sorts of emotions when it comes to peoples feelings and 1 f Jef. People who on one hand say they have your back, and do have your back, versus people who say one thing and do another. I happen to really like 1 f Jef. The person he is and admire how he can mesmerize the a good portion of the female population with just a look with those baby blue's........and be so sincere while doing it because that is who he is.........if he ever proves me wrong........then I will gladly admit that I am not a good judge of character. But so far, he's definitely good character, heart, and soul.
I'm loving the pic 1 f Jef posted of the chair lift, his reflection, and what's this?...........blonde hair showing? Geez people........so what..........I'm just loving the pics. The best one lately is the "high and tight" pic........Wow..........makes your heart start doing all sorts of funny things inside..........extra beats, maybe feel like it's going to jump right out of your chest. I sure could get dirty with that caption, but I'll let my mind jump out of the gutter long enough for yours to float by and make your own conclusions to that caption.........I could stare at those baby blues for ever and ever and ever.......It will be a sad day when we no longer hear anything about our main man, 1 f Jef. I really don't see that happening though, anytime soon. World War 3 will erupt I'm afraid if that ever happens or another great flood will materialize with all the tears being shed by lost souls who are saddened by not seeing 1 f Jef.......
I will watch Sean Lowe tonight. It's his time to shine, too..........plus we need his hotness to spread some warmth here where it's so cold.........
In the meantime, I may watch 15 minutes of 1 f Jef's finale.....again......I'm still a sucker for fairy tale endings. But, the book needs to be picked up and read. Starting at where it was left off at... No going back, no looking ahead to the ending. Just pick up the book, turn the page and read on..............and don't forget to look at the pictures along the way...........if only 1 F Jef and Emily Maynard could do this. If only..................
If you care to follow me on twitter it's @CotySimon......I don't bite, I don't spit. I play nice if you play nice with me.....I will have your back. I like making new friends. You never have enough people in your life, the right kind of people. Surround yourself with people that make you happy, pick you up when you're sad. Sit by you when you're sick, or hold your hand in a time of need..........my heart has plenty of room....you just to need to move in..........
I'm a sucker for reality TV, The Bachelor and Bachelorette, Downton Abbey, Drop Dead Diva.......love stories and romance. Letting the inner child I have inside of me out to play.
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